I just wrote a long post and my phone ate it, probably just as well because stories about treatment like that rile me and make me get my legal claws out.
I have great empathy for you because I know how difficult choices can be to make, although thankfully got my home births, I know had things been a little different your story could easily have been mine. I know how important those things were to you and that you didn't get it brought tears to my eyes. I think you are doing a good job at staying positive. It is important to make the most out of the time you have with your little bundle, they grow so fast. She is really beautiful. I think you have shown great strength and ability to make good choices through pregnancy, labour and birth.