Hi ladies. I'm the op, and I'm glad to see that this thread has taken off!
I am 37 weeks 1 day and am thankfully medically doing well. I have been monitored weekly for a few months now and besides the odd trace of protein in my urine, a slight increase in my bp, and some headaches, I have shown no indication of the onset of pre-e or HELLP.
Emotionally I am starting to have a hard time. I had a scare on Monday with a severe headache and some epigastric pain, so I went to OB triage and everything turned out okay (they did blood work). Being there and being scare brought back so many traumatic memories and anxieties. And tbh, it's almost the fear of it happening again is almost worse than when I actually went through it, as I am much more informed now and and well aware of the dangers.
I love my OB, and I know he's good (he specializes in high risk cases) and he is watching me like a hawk, but I can't help but think that if things do go wrong there is nothing he can really do.
My case is a little different from the "norm" as I started off with severe pre-e, was induced, things seemed to be okay for 36 hours post delivery and then everything went to shit. My Bp sky rocketed even higher than before delivery (got into the 200's over 130's) and I developed HELLP syndrome postpartum. Bp meds orally didn't help, and had to get many injections to try and bring it down immediately. I was finally released almost 2 weeks postpartum, and still had lingering effects for months.
I'm starting to get horrible anxiety about it happening again only with a worse outcome. We are such a happy family of three, why would I risk losing it all?! I know that sounds over dramatic, but I can't help but feel that way!
Are any of you also experiencing this horrid anxiety and worry? I find myself on the brink of panic attacks every night this past week.