Hey all.. I am new to this site.. I had a missed miscarriage due to low progesterone in May of 2010. It was my first time pregnant. I found out I am pregnant again on the 12th of January..I am exactly 6 weeks today. I know I should be excited and happy right now, and I'm trying so hard to be too..It just seems like everytime I do get happy all the bad memories flood back to me also. I know how I should feel, but the past keeps eating at me and I am so afraid of a repeat. I am scared to get my hopes up and set myself up for another disappointment. It was so hard and painful.. I am just here venting how I feel and looking for others who might be having some of the same feelings I'm having. I know this is a happy time and pregnancy is a miracle, but everytime I feel my symptoms ease or anything like that, I start to get paranoid that it's happening all over again, even though I have read it's normal that they will come and go. It was devastating for us, as we have tried for so long. Sometimes I feel so alone though, it's hard because your family doesn't want to hear you say negative things..I know mine tell me to hush and that I'm just borrowing trouble.. Does anyone else have any of these worries or feel similar to the way I do??