Pregnant and terrified!

[Whatsername]

Hi everyone,
I'm new to this type of thing but I'm just looking for someone to talk to! In 2009 I had a miscarriage at 7weeks, I don't think I've ever really gotten over it, I don't know if it's something you do get over! We got pregnant again in 2010 and we now have the most gorgeous, perfect wee boy who is now 2. However, my pregnancy was the most worry filled 9months of my entire life as every possible negative scenario entered my head and I got more and more anxious.
Now, 2 years on, I have battled a lot of demons and I'm dealing with my anxiety issues (I won't say the battle is won because it is not something you can beat in a matter of years, lets just say I'm doing loads better )
Anyway, I am now 10weeks pregnant with baby number 2 and I want to be excited and jump up and down about it, but that anxiety keeps creeping back and checking me everytime I talk about it or start to get excited. I am nowhere near as bad as I was with my last pregnancy but I guess I'm just fed up of feeling this way. Pregnancy is a happy time, and I am so lucky to be able to experience it, so why the hell am I such a misery? Does anyone else feel like this, any advice would be great. I just feel like I need someone to talk to cause anyone I talk to in my circle of friends and family think I am resorting to my old ways if I say I'm worried.

Thanks guys xx

 

[ncmommy]

I have been a mess this pregnancy! I am constantly calling my doctor with anything I think is weird or off. I need to be more optimistic but it is hard. I worry all the time! When I go in for ultrasounds I am a complete mess and sweat non stop until I see the baby and heartbeat. I'm just trying to take one day at a time. I think once I can feel the baby move I will feel better about everything. Just want you to know you are not alone!

 

[Tournesol]

It's such a hard time, I understand completely. We're all in the same boat here.

I managed to overcome my anxiety when I realised that worrying was pointless, it just made me feel worse. I told myself that what will be will be and it's out of my hands.
Whatever happens, I will get through it, because I have to.

Of course I'm still sad about my miscarriage, but it's happened and I can't change the past. I'm focusing on this pregnancy now and trying my best to be completely positive.

Be strong and good luck xxx

 

[Bubsta]

I'm sorry you've experienced loss and you have this anxiety.have you had a scan yet? Personally for me, things do slowly start to improve after a couple of scans and seeing that beautiful HB does improve things somewhat. After having a MC, it does take the innocent joy of pregnancy away, but I'm sure given time it will get easier. You are not alone in these feelings. It is a very anxious time. Hopefully once you can feel bubba moving around it might help you as well. Don't you worry about ringing your Dr she you are worried or concerned. That is what they are there for. Hormones definitely contribute to the emotions and anxiety too. Hang in there Hun. Hopefully things will settle down for you soon and you'll be able to enjoy this special time. Just look at your beautiful little boy and know you are going to have another beautiful child to share your love with. Xxx

 

[Whatsername]

Thank you so much for your support guys, I cannot express enough how good it feels to know there are woman out there who feel the same way as me and who understand. I can just sometimes feel so lonely but speaking on here has helped massively!! I've not had my scan yet, still got two weeks to wait and it feels like a lifetime but I will get there and try to stop worrying so much.

Hugs to you all xxxx