This all sounds so overwhelming. I read that it can be terribly painful. I'm scared, but I want it over with. And I don't want a d&c. The second to last time I had surgery was a total thyroidectomy, which they say is pretty routine. My surgeon says he's performed about three hundred of them. But I ended up with backup from the drainage and needing emergency surgery at midnight, 12 hours after the first.
I'm just so terrified. I seem to be that statistic person where "one in a thousand will have these side effects."
My pregnancy was pretty rough...at least about half the time I was pregnant. I had all-day-sickness and was lethargic and not really myself. But it was worth it for the baby.
This....there is no "it's all worth it."
It's a surgical procedure. To steal my baby from my body before it's ready to leave.
And if something goes wrong and I'm never able to conceive again...I don't know how I could ever live my life.
This has got to be the most confusing, heartbreaking, devastating, terrible thing ever.
I can't imagine a loss later in pregnancy. It would be beyond terrible.
I just want the whole miscarriage itself to be over with so I can get on with the healing process. I'm so distraught now and just trying to cope...but it's not even over yet. I'm still technically pregnant. And it's tearing me apart.