Yesterday I was speaking to my sister, who was meant to be my birthing partner and she told me that she can't just drop everything to be with me at my birth, she has 2 kids and a job. She even moaned at my Aunty who told me. I live in London, she lives2 hours away, so it would have been a mad rush for her to get here. But this means I am now going to have to give birth alone. I live in London, and have no friends here, no family. As soon as baby is born am planning to move to my home town. I have 12 year old with special needs and I am panicking now. I actually do not know what to do. The thought of going into labour and giving birth alone really scares me. I have never felt so isolated or alone.