Sorry for the rant but I'm in the house on my own and I've nobody to rant at right now. I'm so fed up with this pregnancy malarky. I'm in constant pelvic pain, murdered with heartburn and for the last few days I've been barely able to eat for vomitting. ARGH!!! Because of all this I'm pretty sleep deprived and its all getting a bit too much for me. I'm losing my patience for my animals which annoys me and I'm finding it too much effort to be nice to people at work when they say stupid things to me. Normally I'm nice to everyone but now I can't speak to people as I am so irritable all the time. I live in northern Ireland and my DH has to be in England during the week for work which leaves me to try and cope with everything on my own and I'm really struggling. My DH had to work this weekend and my mum is going on hols for 18 days tomorrow which leaves me completely alone and it scares me so much. I saw my mum today and she was saying how worried she was at how depressed I am and how she is leaving me...... If she was that worried why the hell did she book a holiday for 18 days?!?!?! There are people I can call upon if I am stuck but I'm still worried...... I feel so abandoned. I'm feeling let down by the hospital at the moment as well. I still dont have my notes. My consultant held onto them after my 12wk appointment for reasons known only to himself and at each MW appointment I have been given grief by the MW for not having them........ Dont ask me, ask the consultant!?!?! When I try to ask questions they are dismissive and when I say how miserable I am they dont even listen. I just feel like I am trapped in this never ending misery and there is nothing I can do to escape it. I dont blame the baby, it isn't her fault that my body is doing this. I just want her born soon so it can all be over. I had a full on panic attack over it all last Tues after my MW appointment so my DH has arranged with his work that he is going to be able to come home for 5 weeks from the week before the baby is due which is a huge weight off my shoulders but until then I have to struggle on as I have been. Sorry for the rant, just needed to get it off my chest.