Really emotional, I think reality of being pg again is finally hitting me...

[NT123]

Sorry I just wanted to speak about how emotional I am, I got pg on first cycle after mmc in march, and albeit I felt relatively calm for the last 5 days I just can't stop crying today. DH is away in Prague on a stag weekend and I feel really vulnerable without being able to have that cuddle I need. I don't know how the hell I'm going to get through the next few weeks, or, if the doc refuses to ask for an early scan for me, how I wait for 12 weeks. I don't know if I can face another scan showing another loss, I'm suddenly so scared....

 

[lch28]

aww honey i know how you feel. i am also terrified to be pregnant again.. i lost my daughter at 23 weeks in February and i am now 5 weeks pregnant. it is bittersweet because i am so happy but more scared then ever

 

[Leinzlove]

NT123: I remember you! I'm so happy you have concieved. I also have felt so down and emotional about being pregnant again. It is so hard. I'm sorry you have to wait until 12 weeks for your scan. Is there any way you can get a private early scan?

I also had a MMC in March and fell pregnant cycle 1 after first AF. I have my first scan tomorrow... And I'm so scared of history repeating itself. But, also trying to stay positive and sane.

 

[NT123]

Hi ladies, I remember u too leinz, I didn't realise we were both in the same boat! I could pay for a private scan, I'm just concerned about the care I receive if I get a bad result, how it connects up with the nhs if i have to go through the whole awful thing again... I feel a lot calmer now dh is home but just trying to take each day as it comes. Good luck with ur scan Leinz xx

 

[Gem0412]

Hi, sorry for your losses I too had a mmc in march this year and one in december 09.
I went to my doctors and just asked for an early scan and she booked me in for the 27th. I cant imagine waiting 12 weeks
X

 

[Leinzlove]

Yes, its hard! I cried, entering the Dr's office! Dr. did adominal scan, saw just a blurry blob. Asked Dr. if everything was ok. Dr. said he didn't know yet. Did the swap vaginal testing thing. I was shaking, freaking out, crying, nervous. DH said I looked terrible. Dr. did vaginal ultrasound... Blob turned into my beautiful baby, strong heartbeat, perfect round sac. It was the first time I've breathed in weeks.

My Dr. gave me the due date of Jan. 20, which puts me at 9 weeks, 2 days.

 

[NT123]

Good for you, when did u have the scan done? My biggest concern is that last time baby was ok until 9 plus 6 do I'm not sure if I'd have had an early scan if probs would be picked up at that early stage or not.

 

[Leinzlove]

I don't know, hun! I thought I was 8w3d, but Dr. put me at 9w2d based on measurements and LMP. I used OPK's and swore 8w3d was correct.

However, I feel better as my MMC was found at 8w2d, there was no HB. I'm in the US and here its common to get early scans.