Really never thought I would be here :-(

[kmw2g10]

Hello! Hoping for some support as finding it so hard as cant talk to anyone about this apart from my other half. I have 3 beautiful children but we are desperate for one more to complete our family but fear we are being greedy

We have been ttc for a year now (fell pregnant straight away with the first 3 ) and have had 3 miscarriages so far, 2 have been around 5 weeks and the most recent in December was at 7 weeks.

I have not had a period since my last mc in December and had a positive test last weekend. Am booked for a scan Thursday morning but already having brown discharge so I know this ones only here for a short visit too

I have also got an appointment tomorrow with a specialist due to having reccurent miscarriages and keeping everything crossed they may be able to help! Just can't believe this is happening to me after 3 straightforward pregnancies, just thought having one more would be so easy! Even worse that I can't talk to anyone about this and am currently working and at university so have to hold it together all the time. Have just had enough of all this sadness and want my baby

 

[ncmommy]

I'm so sorry you are going through this! I know how you feel we tried for a long time to have #2 but could not hold onto a pregnancy. I really hope this is your sticky bean if not I would hold off on getting pregnant again until you have had some testing done. Even though all my testing came back normal my RE still helped me and here I am.

Best of luck!

 

[scarolinarn04]

As hard as it is don't give up hope yet. I had 2 mc before having my son and I've had 3 m/c over past 1.5 years trying for #2. I was also sent to a specialist for the recurrent losses. They didn't find a cause so we decided to keep with the same treatment plan as before. I'm now 9 weeks (still early and very cautious), but there was a heartbeat last week and all looks good. I also had 4 days of brown spotting at 4-5 weeks and then another 1 time episode around 7 weeks. Brown spotting (yes incredibly scary for us) does not always mean the end. I hope this is your sticky bean.

 

[Smiler82]

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry for all of your losses.

Is there any way you would consider seeing a counsellor? I know from experience it is just so hard to keep everything together when you're going through the grief and sadness of a loss, then for you there must be the extra worry over the tests. I had 2 mcs within 6 months of each other, and just after the 2nd I started working somewhere new so didn't want to be the miserable new girl. Totally threw myself into work, pretended I was ok to the point where I even convinced myself I truly was. Then after a few stressy days for various reasons I totally collapsed under the weight of all the pain and grief I'd been trying to hide. At that point I decided to seek professional help. Friends and family did care but they didn't know how to handle it, and of course it wasn't appropriate to bring it up at work.

Chatting on here has really helped me too, but if there's any way you can get an hour to yourself once a week where you don't have to hold it together I think will help you to deal with your losses and to prepare yourself for what the tests may reveal.

xxx

 

[kmw2g10]

Thank you so much for the kind messages! An Update on the situation.... I started having some right handed pain so had a scan, unfortunatly they couldn't see anything in the womb or tubes so had bloods done. On thurs they were 153 which they said were very low so either miscarrying or very early. On Saturday they had risen to 351 then yesterday were 610. I am booked for another scan on Friday! They are really being amazing and am glad am being taken seriously. Fingers crossed we will see something on Friday and in the right place! Not letting myself get excited though. It's so stressful being pregnant after 3 mcs, every time I go to the toilet I am just waiting for the blood to start x

 

[ncmommy]

That is great news! Let us know how Friday goes. I know it is hard not to worry. I still inspect the tp after I have gone!