I just came across this post and wanted to say that you sound like an amazing person. Whatever your husband is going through is truly his problem and you should never blame yourself for it try to focus on your kids and baby coming. One thing I know for sure is that if my husband would ever tell me that he wasn't attaracted to me anymore while I was pregnant is that he wouldn't see the day to live that one down. I'd make it my personal mission in life to show his ass what he's missing after. After baby is here and I get back to myself. Also it takes a certain set of balls (excuse my vulgarity) to leave your wife while pregnant with your baby-- not cool. These things should make you angry and not sad. You are much stronger than you think! Try to muster that inner strength and channel it! You will be happy again and you can do this. From one self conscious girl to another-- u got this. Now teach him a lesson. Head high and full steam ahead, don't look back and don't ever beg someone for their time and affection. He will regret this decision, you on the other hand will grow and learn from this and be much stronger xx