starryjune
Two cat "babies"
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This 7th consequtive BFN really has me in the pits. My depression is kicking in hard. I had to stay home from work because I couldn't stop crying and still can't. I know I have so much to be grateful for, but this is my big goal in life, and it seems not meant to be. I have a good job but it's so slow and boring and has been for the past year. I really don't have ay more big life goals to achieve except motherhood. I feel like there's no real higher-purpose point to my life anymore. I needed this. I just don't want to try anymore. I am SO tired of every day being the same old, pointless thing. I keep losing friends and family (death or distance or drifting apart, even a friend developing a drug addiction and going MIA). SO EXHAUSTED and sorry to vent here but I have no one else I can talk to who won't freak out.
For those unaware, I have rapid cycling bipolar and my mrs (BOTH of them, no joke) stopped accommodating my work schedule for me to come see them, so I went off meds and don't have any medical help anymore. I am simply too frustrated and lack the energy to try for new ones.
Gosh, I sound pathetic.
For those unaware, I have rapid cycling bipolar and my mrs (BOTH of them, no joke) stopped accommodating my work schedule for me to come see them, so I went off meds and don't have any medical help anymore. I am simply too frustrated and lack the energy to try for new ones.
Gosh, I sound pathetic.