Renewed hope!

[Luvnmy2]

Just wanted to share some positive news in hopes of helping someone else. I had a tubal reversal 3 years ago this month. Have been ttc since then. Periods have been anything but regular. At times they would be "normal" cycles (I'm not even sure what normal is anymore lol) and at times I would have 60+ days cycle. Finally decided to have hsg done to see if tubes were blocked. The thought of it alone terrified me. I was certain my tubes were blocked and knew that I would have to finally face the truth. Plus to add to my fear I am allergic to contrast dye. I break out in hives all over. My dr spoke with the radiologist am I was told I would only have a reaction of it was used in an IV and into my blood stream. That having a hsg would not cause a reaction because I don't have a contact allergy to iodine. Well that didn't really ease my mind any at all. But I was scheduled for last Thursday at 9:00 am. I woke at 5 am as I always do and first thing I noticed was my throat was extremely sore. I immediately thought ok this is a sign I need to stay home and not do this because it will go wrong. Yet I pushed on. By the time I arrive at the hospital i feel pretty sick, and I am certain some one has shoved shards of glass down my throat while I slept. Go Home Now is what I keep hearing in my head, you will react bad to the contrast dye and your tubes are blocked just face it. However I still fills out all paper work. I'm finally called back and the nurse tells my husband she doesn't think he will be allowed to come with me. At this point I'm thinking oh great I get to die with strangers. Then while gettin undressed she tells me she has done this before but has a problems pushing the machine around so don't panic if she looks puzzled or worried. Great another bad sign. Then I was informed there table is just an X-ray table and not really set up correctly but to try to make the best of it. Then it was finally decided my DH could come in. Ok good at least I get to see his face before I die. The dr finally comes in and does his talking then we are about to get started. Here I am laying on the table in all my glory my back hurting from the hard table. I'm freezing because at this point I am getting a fever and those shards of glass someone shoved in my throat has my in a lot of pain. The dr turns and tells me and my husband they don't have te right cath to do it. Computers show they have 2 but they are missing. Wth!!!! Are you kidding me. You couldn't figure this out before I got undressed laid down and spread out. At this point my husband is offering to go to another hospital and pick up the cath they need. But they have sent a nurse to pick it up. They said I could leave and go grab something to eat and come back in an hour. In my head I'm thinking ok if this isn't a for sign that you shouldn't so this then i don't what else is. We leave and grab some food and I take some Motrin for my fever and body aches. Finally head back to hospital and we are called back almost immediately. I get undressed and laid out yet again. Only good thing going at this point is Motrin has kicked in so I'm not freezing and the table is hurting my back so bad. Dr comes back in to get started only to realize he doesn't have the proper things to match the cath they sent. Omg I am doomed. Does my husband and my kids know that I really love them. Will he make sure they remember me, because dr says no worries he will make this work somehow. So now it's time to get started. The very second the dye was injected I knew it. My heart starting racing and I had a strange feeling come over me. I thought oh great I get to die laying spread out on an X-ray table with a stranger in between my legs. So far I'm feeling no pain. Where is the pain I read about when people have these done. Then I'm told one moment I need more dye. Next thing I know is a lot of pain. It was exactly unbearable but it's wasnt a walk in the part either. Just when I thought I couldn't take anymore and was ready to tell him to stop he says he is done. He turns the monitor so my husband and I could see clearly. He says this is the dye traveling through and spilling out of your left tube. Long pause ......... This is your right tube and dye is here (pointin to monitor) and then this is the dye spilling out of your right tube. Congrats both tubes are open and no blockages. I was so excited in that moment. I was indeed sick though. A shot in the butt an free prescriptions later I feel great today and have my clomid ready when my next cycle starts.hopefully soon because they seem to be getting straightene back out to a more normal length. Ladies don't lose hope no matter how bad things look. Hopefully soon I will have my bfp. Besides I hear it's easy to conceive after an hsg.