Right, I've got to my limit and I've had enough

[calm]

Its 5 in the morning. I've spent 1 hour trying to individually get my twins to sleep. Before that I slept like crap because I had one in the bed with me. I start work tomorrow, so after being with them for 9 hours looking after them, I will then go and teach 6 hours, arrive home at 10 pm, and probably have to go immediately to bed. And if I could only go bed to think: I'm going to have a good night's sleep, but I can't. I can't remember the last time I just slept more then 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I feel at my witts end, and I'm SICK of not sleeping. I feel kicked and abused and I'm just so frustrated and angry and tired and I have to keep deleting what I write because its all negative. I'm just really really REALLY at my limit. Why oh WHY don't children sleep? I just feel punished for wanting children at this moment Sorry for the horrible negative rant but I'm not myself.

 

[calm]

Well, its 3 hours later. I spent more than half of the time getting them back to sleep, it was so hard, I put so much effort into it for them just to awaken the moment I put them in the cot. In the end I've got an hours sleep by getting one of and the other with me in the bed. My eyes are so sore, 2 months after having them I got multiple stye infection that was much worse from sleep deprivation. My eyes are stinging again so I imagine I'me having that again. It was horrible last time as I had to look after them for 9 days with one eye closed as I just couldn't open it. I'm not feeling so sorry for myself and frustrated though now, I never do it the day, however little I've slept,thank goodness

 

[ButterflyX]

Hi

I remember you back on the days when I was pregnant.

awwh I am sorry to read that. I can imagine how exhausting you must feel. My 10 months old isn't a good sleeper either. He doesn't sleep through the night and wakes up at least 3 times on average. I work part time , but he is with me right after I return to him. His naps used to be better when I was off work and his routine was more consistent, so I also don't get enough sleep, so I know what exhaustion mean. To think about dealing with two? wow! I bet that the efforts a mama puts is doubled; so is the tiredness. (((hugs))) hang in there. they'll grow before you know it.

Can you get some help from anyone somehow? even if for just a little while during the day? Even if it was just very little.

 

[hanni]

I've just literally posted a thread similar to this. I know how you feel. Dominic goes down fine but wakes every 20-45 mins. We are at the end of our tether too. I can't even imagine with twins.
I've got no advice for you sorry (I wish I knew how to make them sleep!) But you're not the only one who's baby/ies don't sleep.

 

[Button#]

Sorry you're having such a rough time. My DS was a nightmare sleeper too. I know it doesn't feel like it now but one day they will sleep 12 hours with no wake ups and you'll get to feel human again.

By all means rant away, there will be lots of people on here who know how you feel and understand.

 

[Fizzyfefe]

I'm so sorry. I totally empathize. Does your hubby help you at night?

 

[LeannieB]

Hi my little boy is 11 months and he is an awful sleeper. He has got worse since being in Hospital. Some nights he is up every hour now but he has bad wind. Feel so bad for him as he doesnt want to be awake and he must feel shattered as well. He ends up in our Bed most nights so the sleep I do get is disturbed as he is moves around all the time. My OH Sister suggested putting a Fan in his room and facing it the other way and leaving it on at night as this helped her son who was also a bad sleeper. I havent tried it yet but Im not helping matters as since he was poorly I am having a hard time leaving him in his own room as I worry and then cant sleep anyway. x

 

[calm]

Thank you everyone. It's much appreciated and I know that you all understand me. Its just moments, like when its 3 in the morning and I'm so so tired, I get so grumpy! DH doesn't do nights as he would reach the level of frustration I do in 30 days in just one night, it would stress me more out. My mum does help a lot though, and sometimes does the night instead of me so I can have a goods night sleep, but that hasn't happened in a long time as my dad is not well. Anyway, they are due their nap soon and I'm going to nap with them, one day we will sleep "normally"... one day!

 

[hanni]

Thank you everyone. It's much appreciated and I know that you all understand me. Its just moments, like when its 3 in the morning and I'm so so tired, I get so grumpy! DH doesn't do nights as he would reach the level of frustration I do in 30 days in just one night, it would stress me more out. My mum does help a lot though, and sometimes does the night instead of me so I can have a goods night sleep, but that hasn't happened in a long time as my dad is not well. Anyway, they are due their nap soon and I'm going to nap with them, one day we will sleep "normally"... one day!

This is what I do, always nap when he naps.

Pros - more sleep!
Cons - my house is always a tip. Oops

 

[calm]

Thank you everyone. It's much appreciated and I know that you all understand me. Its just moments, like when its 3 in the morning and I'm so so tired, I get so grumpy! DH doesn't do nights as he would reach the level of frustration I do in 30 days in just one night, it would stress me more out. My mum does help a lot though, and sometimes does the night instead of me so I can have a goods night sleep, but that hasn't happened in a long time as my dad is not well. Anyway, they are due their nap soon and I'm going to nap with them, one day we will sleep "normally"... one day!

This is what I do, always nap when he naps.

Pros - more sleep!
Cons - my house is always a tip. Oops

I can only even do that lately since I've mastered synchronised naps. Before it was impossible as there was always one awake

 

[Eleanor ace]

. I feel your pain, DD gets up a lot at night and sometimes I could weep thinking about how many years its been since I had more than 1.5 hours sleep in a row and how many more might lie ahead of me! But saying that it does get easier to deal with, when DD was 1 I thought I had reached my limit and that I surely couldn't take any more. Then I think I just accepted that that is how things are and it doesn't feel so bad. I mean I don't love it but I don't feel like I might scream/cry/punch the wall with frustration any more .

 

[calm]

. I feel your pain, DD gets up a lot at night and sometimes I could weep thinking about how many years its been since I had more than 1.5 hours sleep in a row and how many more might lie ahead of me! But saying that it does get easier to deal with, when DD was 1 I thought I had reached my limit and that I surely couldn't take any more. Then I think I just accepted that that is how things are and it doesn't feel so bad. I mean I don't love it but I don't feel like I might scream/cry/punch the wall with frustration any more .

Thank you Eleanor, now knowing what lies ahead of me for years I really do want to cry

 

[pinkpassion]

When dd would be like this and I felt I was about to loose it o would strap her into her carseat and put it on her stroller, she'd go right to sleep and I'd sleep right next to her in that, it was a life saver for me (and the stroller reclined her carseat enough that I didn't have to worry about any choking or suffocation hazards and I was always right beside her!!! I'm so sorry, I know how horrible it is (well you must have it 10x worse since you have 2) but I hope you are able to sleep soon!!!

 

[BabyCleo]

You poor thing!!

Can your OH take one, and you take another and sleep with one each? I wouldn't even know where to start with twins, one is enough for me!

Sending love

 

[calm]

Thanks again everyone. Its 6 in the morning and we're up for the day, that only means they had over 9 hours sleep. Of course interrupted... Only one twin playing up lately, the one that whats to get in my bed.

Pinkpassion, mine will be 1 this month, they don't really fall asleep in strollers anymore. Usually I can get them to sleep without a problem, using the rocking chair or putting them in the bed. But its like defusing a bomb sometimes putting them back in the cots... and for them to stay there! X

BabyCleo, its really hard for them to not sleep in the nursery, they both have their big sturdy cots, plus my DH is okay when I'm asleep if its getting them back quickly to sleep, but when they woke him up I just don't think he would have the patience and they cry for me. X

 

[calm]

I'm watching them crawl around in their raccoon dressing gowns making cutey noises. Its a good job they are so super adorable, they make me smile so much, I don't know what my life could have meant before having them. Sleep deprivation seems to be the price I pay for such happiness at the moment, yawnnnnnnnn