Scared and Happy all mixed up!

[anie]

Hi

I got a this morning. I'm sort of in a bit of a muddle, I'm happy but so scared..

I had an mc in November, and now I'm just convincing myself that I can't be too happy about bfp because everything will probably go bad

Thing, is I took a test a week ago and got a bfn, so I thought it was over. So now I'm feeling ever so guilty for that bacardi and diet coke and those glasses of wine I've enjoyed over the past week.

Eeep!

 

[biteable]

Aww congrats hun,i know how you feel about not getting excited as im petrified things will go wrong so waiting till 12 wks b4 we tell anyone,maybe your docs will give you a reassurance scan i had 2 last time i was preg which helped a little,but since i had a straight forward pregnancy last time im not sure whether i will be able to get a reassurance scan this time so maybe i will pay for a private 1.I wouldnt worry about the drink hun it cudnt be helped and i smoked up till last a week and a half ago,just take each day as it comes,i cant wait to get to 12 wks

 

[Jellyt]

I'm sorry for your losses . I know how hard this is for you as I was feeling exactly the same when I got my BFP after my losses. I'd drank too before I knew I was pregnant as many people will have done so try not to worry - know it's easier said than done! As you can see by my ticker, i'm 28 weeks now, I hope that gives you faith! I had a reassurance scan at 7+5 this time too so if it will help you, ask for one! I was still terrified at my 12 and 20 week scans but I think it helped me relax a tiny bit once i'd seen the heartbeat. Congrats on your BFP and sending you lots of sticky dust

 

[anie]

Thanks, I really hope I can have a reassurance scan...

It does give me faith to see how well people who have had previous miscarriages are doing with their pregnancies..

I don't reckon I'll start enjoying it properly until 2nd Tri... Though I have had a nice day of eating constantly today, haha!

 

[Jellyt]

Yeah it's always difficult and we'll always be constantly worried but I can say that i've started to be able to get excited now and I hope the same for you! I've seen that you're from Leicestershire too, where abouts??

 

[Jellyt]

Though I have had a nice day of eating constantly today, haha!

Hehe get in!

 

[anie]

Yeah it's always difficult and we'll always be constantly worried but I can say that i've started to be able to get excited now and I hope the same for you! I've seen that you're from Leicestershire too, where abouts??

I hope so too, fingers crossed! I want to be really happy, but until I see that heart beating I don't think I'll be able to begin show my joy..

I'm from Loughborough.. You??

Always good when there's no excuse not to eat lots! And even better when there's a reason to!