Cetarari
1 Angel, 2 Cats, 1 Sprout
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I'm not sure if this belongs here or not, but I can't think where else to post it. We lost our daughter in January, she was our first child and we got to spend 30 minutes with her before she passed. I fell unexpectedly pregnant in April ( after 5 years ttc and IVF our chances of natural conception were minuscule) and although I am overjoyed I'm also very scared of my reaction when we have our gender scan tomorrow.
I'm afraid of our Sprout being a girl, I know it's irrational and truthfully as long as he or she is healthy I shouldn't care, but I know if Sprout is a boy I'll rest a little easier. I guess I think I'll cope better with a boy after losing our Emmy. Please tell me I'm being daft and that all this worry will be for nothing, that I'll cope okay if our Sprout is a girl. I have no preference when I think about it rationally, but I feel guilty for having another daughter when Emmy isn't with us (if Sprout is a girl).
I'm afraid of our Sprout being a girl, I know it's irrational and truthfully as long as he or she is healthy I shouldn't care, but I know if Sprout is a boy I'll rest a little easier. I guess I think I'll cope better with a boy after losing our Emmy. Please tell me I'm being daft and that all this worry will be for nothing, that I'll cope okay if our Sprout is a girl. I have no preference when I think about it rationally, but I feel guilty for having another daughter when Emmy isn't with us (if Sprout is a girl).