Almost 8 months ago my beautiful angel was born sleeping. Since then I've been on the pill, but I have not had my period since November! I'm so scared that Im Pregnant because I can't do this, not again!! I'm a wreck I can't eat, I can't sleep. I wanted to have a baby so bad but I can't go through that again I'm not strong enough. Thinking I'm pregnant makes me miss him so much I can't breathe and I want to scream and yell that it's not fair!! I was so good and I was going to be a great mom. I love him so much and I don't want another baby, I want him back!! I got into a big fight with my husband because I didn't tell him until today, I've been lying to him. And I'm so mad at him, which is stupid because his right I should of told him from the start and I should of gone to the doctor but I just want to crawl into my bed and I want the world to just go away.