self pitty thread....sorry

[LaRockera]

i keep feeling bad for my rant now...

What are you talking about? This is the perfect place to rant! That's what we're here for silly girl! And we've all ranted at some point, and may very well rant again!

 

[sianyld]

i dont think any marm was intended.and to me my fs was horrid and didnt understand at all,my gp is lovely but i think there is a big difference in the two xx

Exactly - i agree with u! some are not nice to be fair but by no means do i mean all DR's! some are helpful, some are not x

 

[mummy2lola]

i keep feeling bad for my rant now...

What are you talking about? This is the perfect place to rant! That's what we're here for silly girl! And we've all ranted at some point, and may very well rant again!

lol what am i think,ill give myself a slap lol xx

 

[MrsPOP]

i dont think any harm was intended mrspop and to me my fs was horrid and didnt understand at all,my gp is lovely but i think there is a big difference in the two xx

No I know no harm was intended...me and my big oversensitive mouth. I know how crap some docs are and hate that they are letting the side down because I hear such awful stories on here. It makes me want to go into their consulting rooms and throttling them for being such sh*ts to you all!

Im just feeling soooooo down today too. My best friend has gone into labour today and she accidentally feel preggy on the pill. Im delighted for her and so excited to meet her new little baba but it just made it even more clear to me how much I want a baby and how scared I am that it will never happen for me.

 

[mummy2lola]

i completely understand hun,well ur definitely in the right thread if ur feeling down,we'll all have a cry together and hopefully feel better for it xx

 

[MrsPOP]

i completely understand hun,well ur definitely in the right thread if ur feeling down,we'll all have a cry together and hopefully feel better for it xx

Oh dont be so nice to me, I am so nearly now!!! Lol. Been on my own all day, DH was in work and Ive just been sitting here thinking all negative thoughts! I'll never get pg unless I chill out and start eh? :doh:

 

[mummy2lola]

i completely understand hun,well ur definitely in the right thread if ur feeling down,we'll all have a cry together and hopefully feel better for it xx

Oh dont be so nice to me, I am so nearly now!!! Lol. Been on my own all day, DH was in work and Ive just been sitting here thinking all negative thoughts! I'll never get pg unless I chill out and start eh? :doh:

honestly wot r we like lol everytime everyone was replying something nice i was crying again......id be crying more if it wasnt nice lol we'll get there hun.have u noticed im always hopefull for everyone but myself.i think we're all like that at the mo tbh.we all come on here supporting eachother but inside we're screaming at how low we are xx

 

[Hel_star]

Hey hun, i think you're right you will feel a little easier tomorrow but today it just feels so raw because everything got dragged up by going to the baby shower. But you should never feel that by feeling this way you're doing something wrong! My sister in law took 10 years to concieve my beautiful nephew and she was told she would never concieve naturally and IVF never worked! She always tells me that TTC is like life....God never said it would be easy but it will be worth it! Fingers crossed it will happen one day! I know you want one day to be today but sometimes i guess we have to wait! DUST DUST DUST xxx

 

[mummy2lola]

hun that was lovely,honestly thank u xx

 

[inkdchick]

we all have these down times hun, me and OH have been trying for two years now and have had 9 early m/c's and no-one will help us in the medical world so we are out on our own and its gets me really down sometimes, but theres always that chance that it will happen for us and we all keep going we are here for each other , you have to believe it x

 

[babyhopes2010]

 

[NOMORENUMBERS]

this is exactly how i felt yesterday it is such a muddle of emotions its really hard and you just never know where to place yourself sometimes,

its like you feel just so bad, so incredibly low and think i can believe im on cycle 7 anf then i feel immediately guilty for the women who have been trying longer than that and then feeling so upset that everyone around you seems to be getting bfps and secretly hating it and again feeling incredibly guilty when you realise its one of your good friends and you should feel happy and then saying oh i'll have a drink tonight, treat myself and then only drink half of it because you dont want it to affect your chances and then saying this will be THE month and getting a slight bit of optimism and then something reminds you of the overwhelming, crushing, almost inexplicable grief that it makes you wonder whether any month will be THE month

i am not as bad as yesterday but i am still not doing good, i really really felt good about the last cycle but obviously no.

i think i need a punch bag and a few cheapy china plates to throw about, really scream and cry and get angry so i can then just get over it a little

hmmmmm onwards and upwards . . . . . .

 

[mummy2lola]

this is exactly how i felt yesterday it is such a muddle of emotions its really hard and you just never know where to place yourself sometimes,

its like you feel just so bad, so incredibly low and think i can believe im on cycle 7 anf then i feel immediately guilty for the women who have been trying longer than that and then feeling so upset that everyone around you seems to be getting bfps and secretly hating it and again feeling incredibly guilty when you realise its one of your good friends and you should feel happy and then saying oh i'll have a drink tonight, treat myself and then only drink half of it because you dont want it to affect your chances and then saying this will be THE month and getting a slight bit of optimism and then something reminds you of the overwhelming, crushing, almost inexplicable grief that it makes you wonder whether any month will be THE month

i am not as bad as yesterday but i am still not doing good, i really really felt good about the last cycle but obviously no.

i think i need a punch bag and a few cheapy china plates to throw about, really scream and cry and get angry so i can then just get over it a little

hmmmmm onwards and upwards . . . . . .

thats a good idea about the plates u know hun,i mite give it a go,get it all out and then relax in a bath filled with radox bubbles.hope u feel better soon to hun xx

 

[babyhopes2010]

i know hun its so hard i been of depo since april 2009
every month i get optimistic is this my month im going up to cloud nine then bam inthe face....back down to the relality that theres no miracle in my tummy...and that i mite not ever give my husband the gift of a baby.ttc sucks!
I just hate everyone atm iv turnt into a bitter bitchh...
i can only seem to relate to people on here...if dh saw these threads he would be shocked. and with ever bfp i hear im happy for them but angry that its not me which sounds selfish but people seem to get pregnant just like that why cant i be that person...when is it my turn
soz rant over......

 

[YesPlease]

please keep your chin up (sorry I know it must be hard) you were great going to the shower. I hope you get good news soon

 

[mummy2lola]

i know hun its so hard i been of depo since april 2009
every month i get optimistic is this my month im going up to cloud nine then bam inthe face....back down to the relality that theres no miracle in my tummy...and that i mite not ever give my husband the gift of a baby.ttc sucks!
I just hate everyone atm iv turnt into a bitter bitchh...
i can only seem to relate to people on here...if dh saw these threads he would be shocked. and with ever bfp i hear im happy for them but angry that its not me which sounds selfish but people seem to get pregnant just like that why cant i be that person...when is it my turn
soz rant over......

i think this is a good place to get it all out hun.and ur totally right,i feel like this is the only place that im understood.u will get there,i know u will,u really deserve it xx

 

[NOMORENUMBERS]

i am exactly the same! i am becoming a right cow about things at the moment, when af is gone and i get into fertile phase again i become totally positive and focused again but that is not for like another two weeks. i really need to pick myself up from it this month

my dh is the same he doesnt fully understand what we all have to talk about i just look at him and say we talk about things that you wouldnt want to . . . unless you want to tell me whether you are experiencing nice stretchy egg white cm ??? nope??? well it helps me coming on here

could you imagine saying some of the things we all come out with sometimes to people in "the real world"? especially about other pregnant people, i never could understand people who refused to go to family occassions because of the questions of why no more kids yet or massive pregnant people coming up tp, but know i totally do.

my problem is i have lost 3 stone of weight from my ds, i have a pouch because i had an emergency c section and my belly hangs over the scar - nice - in the wrong top it looks like a slight bump, i get oh look at your belly whats in it?!?!? FECKING LOTS OF FAT YOU FECKING FECKER!

 

[mummy2lola]

i feel like im getting very bitter and a hard person aswell hun,whats getting me at the mo (which my friend has never done) is pg women REALLY moaning about things.ms,tiredness,headaches,backaches.i feel like screaming "its not a bloody illness its a blessing" and i would take it all for one chance to be a mum xx

 

[sianyld]

i feel like that too hun, sometimes people take things for granted and just dont get wat us women go thru to get there! had another challenge to nite with family matters and pregnancy! im gonna stay the bigger person! 100% they will not drag me down!!x

 

[keyahopes]

Baby showers are evil evil things I just turned down an invitation to a shower because everyone there is either pregnant or has a 6 month or less baby. All they do is talk about how often their babies poop and how much milk they drink. Yes, i would love to talk about these things too, but right now i feel so left out.
I am feeling so much better i turned down the invitation. Actually i didn't turn it down, i just said i have to be somewhere else at the same time.

I think you are brave to have gone in the first place