Seriously struggling with going back to work

[MrsT&Ben]

I went back to work last week and I hate it. I cry every day I have to go in. I miss my princess so much. I don't remember feeling like this with my son. I wish I didn't have to work but hubby isn't willing to compromise our life style.
I want so much to be with you baby girl full time.
Everything has changed at work and no one cares that I'm struggling. I have a one to one today with my new line manager and I'm pretty certain she's going to give me the talk of how I need to pull my socks up and get over myself. She's a fucking bitch. I have been in the same job for 10 years and am terrified of finding something new.

How can I make myself feel better?

 

[M2B83]

aww I feel your pain! snap!
although as the weeks go on its getting better.
are you working full or part time??
how did meeting go?
x

 

[Unlucky41]

I haven't gone back yet still have five weeks to go. I feel your back. They have given me a part time role but a Junior role Reporting to someone more junior than myself. I wish I didn't have to work but my husband doesn't earn enough! I get no spending money which would make me depress.

 

[MrsT&Ben]

Thanks ladies.
Meeting went better than I thought. Pretty sure she'd be pre warned that I was close to walking so turned the charm on
I still despise work and don't want to be there but feel more able to grin and bear it for now. I've never been so jealous of sahm as I am now!

 

[misspriss]

I'm so sorry. I really struggled with going back to work after DS. It was awful. We made the decision that I'd be a SAHM after DD, because we can't afford childcare for 2 and our family has said they can't watch 2. Worst care scenario we'd have to pay childcare for DS and family could watch DD (I am not comfortable putting an infant in the care of strangers) but I'd really rather avoid that if possible because then I'd have to work full time hours to make paying for DS's care a reasonable expense, as you can't do PT daycare it is all FT and FT rates, no matter how many hours you use.

 

[tulip1975]

There are benefits and drawbacks to both working motherhood and stay-at-home motherhood. To make yourself feel better, focus on the benefits. For example, your baby is getting some variety to her learning and development experience by spending her part of her day with different people. You are getting some adult conversation.

I just went back to work last week as well, and I really treasure my time at home now. Before, I was kind of in an aimless state. Work has provided some structure to my day.

 

[Izzie74]

I start on 1st July and am dreading it too. My mum will look after dd, but I'm worried about her feeding, crying, screaming, missing me, missing her. I just want her to be happy and my mum to not have to deal with her being upset all day.