Below is a poem I wrote about how I am feeling, after losing my son Lucas on 19 March 2011. He was 13 hours old when he sadly passed xx
Lucas,
I was shocked to find out I was pregnant
Then overjoyed when the shock settled down
I was shocked to find out I was having a son
But blessed to be having a son & daughter
I was shocked when I went into labour naturally
As your sister just didn't want to come
I was shocked when my waters broke
As that's when everything started to go wrong
I was shocked as I was rushed into theatre
I didn't understand what was going on
I was shocked when I finally woke up
As I didn't realise what had gone on
I was shocked listening to doctor
As he was telling me I was going to lose my son
I was shocked when I seen you for the first time
Because you looked so beautiful & perfect
I was shocked that this was happening to you
You were innocent and had done nothing wrong
After all the shock it was now time
We had to say our goodbye for one last time
Since that moment I no longer feel shock
As all I feel is NUMB!
Good night my angel, sleep well. Mummy, Daddy & Moo love you so much and miss you more as every second goes by! xxx
Lucas,
I was shocked to find out I was pregnant
Then overjoyed when the shock settled down
I was shocked to find out I was having a son
But blessed to be having a son & daughter
I was shocked when I went into labour naturally
As your sister just didn't want to come
I was shocked when my waters broke
As that's when everything started to go wrong
I was shocked as I was rushed into theatre
I didn't understand what was going on
I was shocked when I finally woke up
As I didn't realise what had gone on
I was shocked listening to doctor
As he was telling me I was going to lose my son
I was shocked when I seen you for the first time
Because you looked so beautiful & perfect
I was shocked that this was happening to you
You were innocent and had done nothing wrong
After all the shock it was now time
We had to say our goodbye for one last time
Since that moment I no longer feel shock
As all I feel is NUMB!
Good night my angel, sleep well. Mummy, Daddy & Moo love you so much and miss you more as every second goes by! xxx
