Should've read the signs...

[minni2906]

It started at the first u/s. Baby was measuring 6w2d and should've been 8w1d. But the heartbeat was there. And strong. 139bpm. My doctor told me that once there's a heartbeart the miscarriage risk drops significantly. I carried on, happy, excited. Saw my doc again at (by new dates) 10w2d and she couldn't find the heartbeat on doppler so I was sent for an u/s. It was confirmed. Baby stopped growing at 7w3d. According to the pictures, there was a clot in the umbilical cord. I should've known at that first u/s that something wasn't right.

Scheduled a D&C for Friday but I started spotting today. My doc rescheduled me for tomorrow. This pain is so intense. And that's not even counting the emotional pain. I just want it to be done so we can try again and be happy again. Is it wrong to feel that way?

 

[whigfield]

First of all, big hugs to you hun and I'm very sorry for your loss.

Nobody can tell you how to feel or what's normal - we all grieve in our own ways - so it's not wrong at all. I felt very similar during the early stages of my last miscarriage and felt really guilty afterwards, but I think it's a part of the grieving process.

Wishing you luck with your D&C and I hope you find some peace soon.

 

[minni2906]

Thank you. I feel somewhat guilty about it as well. I feel like wanting to move forward so quickly, I'm not giving enough attention to losing my little nugget.