I peronally couldnt ever have relations whilst pregnant with another guy other than the babies dad.... there is something about it that in my eyes I think is just weirdly wrong!!
before my holiday with my OH (the one in which we conceived) I was using the internet to talk to an old friend and had even kissed him on previous ocasions whilst seeing him up town! It could have got so messy!! I felt that I was missing out on something... my feelings were I knew my OH was the one but it was lacking something!! I must stress this was the first time in nearly 4 years I had EVER kissed another guy!! I even stayed the night at his but I did not actually have sex with him! It was about getting attention of someone else he made me feel wanted!! he was a good friend that I was dangerously getting close to!! It was fun... and new and exciting!!
Anyways my big family holiday in florida made me feel absolutely awful for what I had done.. my OH so didnt deserve it one little bit!! And the time away proved that it was him.... him only I wanted!! I found myself apoligising to him whilst he was sleeping! A week later upon returning from that hol I found out I was pregnant!!! I was VERY happy but still to this day I feel sooooooooooooooo awful for ever doubting our relationship!!! At the beginning of my pregnancy I HATED myself for kissing another guy the same month my baby was conceived!! I still cant believe I let myself kiss another guy!!
I know this isnt what you asked mBlack but I havent been able to tell anyone this and when i first joined BnB I never wanted to start a thread about it as I didnt want to be judged!! i know now that you ladies are not like that at all
Def agree.... without more long winded writing my parents have not been together since my dad left when my sis was 6 months old!!! They still do NOT get along...!! Seriously to the point of when i told my mum I was pregnant.... she first of all said "I cant believe I have to share grandchildren with HIM"!!!
Anyways this hatred between them had such a negative effect on me!! My first relationship as a 13 year old ended in which made me think no relationship ever lasted!! I was treated for depression!!
I think my upbringing with my parents the way they are makes me soooo badly want to be with my babies daddy for as long as I live!! I dont want her going through what I went through