I am trying so hard to be positive. I can't. My hormones are a mess. I was only 7 weeks pregnant, but I had contractions for 14 hrs. I have to be at work. I'm mad at the way most medical personnel handled this. I'm mad at insensitive people. I am violently angry and fantasizing about hurting people. I know my hormones are a mess. I'm ok one minute, then having hot flahes, or freezing, or crying, or wanting to kill anyone who even looks at me funny. I feel alone and angry at the world.