LO is almost 11 weeks old and I hate the fact that I cant exclusively breastfeed and feel like I have failed Alexia somehow. I didnt know much about breastfeeding before LO and assumed that the midwifes/LC would encourage and give me good advice. I was so wrong and it still upsets me. I ended up having an EMCS and they left the epidural in for over 24 hours for pain relief. The evening she was born, she was extremely jaundice so went under the lights that night. I couldnt get up to her obviously because of the epi, and they forgot to give me the nurse call buzzer, so LO was only fed once that night. The next day I was told I had to top up with formula because she was starving. I was told she should be only wanting to feed once every 4 hours and anymore was abnormal, so hence the formula. I was crying so hard when the midwives gave it, and I was told that not every mother is able to breastfeed. My milk obviously hadnt come in as she was only one day old at this point. The LC saw me day 2 and asked that I was given domperidone, and also told me to continue to top up with formula and that not everyone can breastfeed but I can give it a go if I was that determined. When I got home I stopped topping up with formula, and after my own research started pumping and feeding as often as Alexia wanted. The HV kept an eye on her weight and after the first week, she had only gained 80g. I was again told I was starving her and to now give her 60ml top ups after a breastfeed. I gave in and now, no matter what I have done I cannot increase my milk supply. I saw a private LC and she was disgusted with the advice I received, but even with her help, I could not increase my supply. I stopped the domperidone as the dr refused to prescribe anymore, but started fenugreek which helped but not enough. At my 6 week check up, the doctor told me that he was surprised I was persevering with breastfeeding, and seeing as I had small breasts there is no surprise I have a low supply I have size D boobs, not massive but I am not flat chested!! Anyway, I am resigned to the fact that I cant exclusively breastfeed. I guess that she mainly getting breastmilk so it doing some good. I never assumed I would have a problem with supply and wasnt at all prepared for the fact that it wasnt so easy for me. It just makes me so mad that I want really given a chance by the health professionals. Alexia is a thriving happy bubba so that's the most important thing!