winterwonder
Mum to a angel baby
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Morning all.
Its been awhile since i posted on here, I guess i've been sticking my head in the sand really, cos otherwise it hurts too much, I still think about Bud all the time, about how i would be 31 weeks on this monday coming up, all the stuff i would of got by now, how i would've painted his room etc.
Instead now i'm just waiting for everything, we finally got a letter for a appointment to find out all the test results, which is next friday, so i'm petrified because i've know idea what they'll say, and i cant bear the thought that it'll be "just one of those things", i think i'd rather have a reason why he died or something which i can at least fix.
And my stupid AF has yet to return! which is really stressing me out, i think i had a period 4 weeks after i lost Bud, although it only lasted a day and a half, and nothing since, which is nearly 7 weeks. I keep spotting every few days, I know i'm not pregnant, as i did a test yesterday, i just want it back, I dont know why.
Oh and christmas, so not looking forward to that.
I hope the rest of you ladies are keeping well, lots of
Its been awhile since i posted on here, I guess i've been sticking my head in the sand really, cos otherwise it hurts too much, I still think about Bud all the time, about how i would be 31 weeks on this monday coming up, all the stuff i would of got by now, how i would've painted his room etc.
Instead now i'm just waiting for everything, we finally got a letter for a appointment to find out all the test results, which is next friday, so i'm petrified because i've know idea what they'll say, and i cant bear the thought that it'll be "just one of those things", i think i'd rather have a reason why he died or something which i can at least fix.
And my stupid AF has yet to return! which is really stressing me out, i think i had a period 4 weeks after i lost Bud, although it only lasted a day and a half, and nothing since, which is nearly 7 weeks. I keep spotting every few days, I know i'm not pregnant, as i did a test yesterday, i just want it back, I dont know why.
Oh and christmas, so not looking forward to that.
I hope the rest of you ladies are keeping well, lots of