EmpireBiscuit
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2 weeks ago today we found out at the 20w ultrasound that our son A had passed, we were almost 21 weeks, no signs of anything gone wrong, but he had died (Harmony test had showed a perfectly healthy little boy).
Was induced and gave birth, and then had to have some traumatic surgery to remove placenta (my BP had spiked so high they couldn't use the most effective medication to release and instead had to give me spine blocker and operate). So the night we had with A in the hospital I was quite out of it on meds and spinal block so we only got one picture.
Since then I've been struggling, partner had to go back to work last week so I'm left alone with my awful thoughts 12 hours a day. Been back and forward to doctor for anti-depressants and sleeping pills as was having flashbacks and unable to sleep, finally got something on Friday that knocks me out. My own family doctor has been on sick leave for 6 months now so I get random locums every time. And, despite the hospital phoning and getting all this stuff on my file, the doctor surgery STILL sent me a letter on Friday about my pregnancy
I'm starting counselling today but really at a loss what to do with myself, my body is too broken to get out and do stuff.
Only two of my friends have bothered coming to see me, and my poor partner is probably supppressing his emotions to support me.
I just don't know what to do.
Was induced and gave birth, and then had to have some traumatic surgery to remove placenta (my BP had spiked so high they couldn't use the most effective medication to release and instead had to give me spine blocker and operate). So the night we had with A in the hospital I was quite out of it on meds and spinal block so we only got one picture.
Since then I've been struggling, partner had to go back to work last week so I'm left alone with my awful thoughts 12 hours a day. Been back and forward to doctor for anti-depressants and sleeping pills as was having flashbacks and unable to sleep, finally got something on Friday that knocks me out. My own family doctor has been on sick leave for 6 months now so I get random locums every time. And, despite the hospital phoning and getting all this stuff on my file, the doctor surgery STILL sent me a letter on Friday about my pregnancy
I'm starting counselling today but really at a loss what to do with myself, my body is too broken to get out and do stuff.
Only two of my friends have bothered coming to see me, and my poor partner is probably supppressing his emotions to support me.
I just don't know what to do.