So sad to be here...

[Peach Blossom]

I can't quite believe that I'm writing on this part of the forum. 3 weeks ago I had a scan at 7+5 and I saw the hb. I'd been spotting a small amount throughout my pregnancy, but it had been brown and the doctor said not to worry unless it turned red or I began to get bad pains, we had the scan just to make sure. It was such a beautiful moment seeing the hb. Last Tuesday I had a small red bleed and went to A&E where they did some tests, but said everything looked ok. They booked me in for a scan yesterday just to make sure.

As you may have guessed the scan didn't go well and although the bean had grown slightly since the last scan there was no hb. It was such a crushing devastating shock. I still haven't quite taken it all in. I was "lucky" enough to be able to get straight in to have a womb evacuation last night.

I've not been able to stop crying since and the emotional pain seems so unbearable. I know that I will get through, but I'm so confused. The doctors say that from the dates the bean's hb stopped 4 weeks ago, but we saw it on an ultrasound 3 weeks ago. It obviously wasn't meant to be this time, but I feel so confused and so sad. My husband and I had been due to start our first round of fertility treatment when we found out I was pregnant. I know 1 in 4 pregnancies end like this and so many people have been through this, but it just feels so unfair.

Sorry for the vent... just needed to get it out there...

 

[dawny690]

Oh my im so sorry for your loss huni, we are all here to support you as we have all had mc's at different stages. It is unfair hun and dont ever say sorry for venting hun, vent all you like xx

 

[toby2]

((((((((((((peach blossom))))))))))) sorry you are going through this,so tough and such a shock for you after being reassured by your scan. Give yourself time and take it easy for awhile, am not suprised you are crying lots-as the days pass it does get a little easier
xxxx

 

[Rebaby]

I am so sorry for your loss

 

[Chilli]

I'm really sorry!

 

[Shelby2007]

Oh so sorry for your loss.

 

[vik]

So sorry hun.

 

[Snowball]

I'm so sorry hun

 

[Barneyboo]

So sorry x x x x

 

[orange-sox]

so sorry for your loss your little angel will always be in your heart xxx

 

[RobenR]

Very sorry for your loss.

 

[LeaArr]

I'm so sorry hun!

 

[lauraperrysan]

im so sorry for your loss xxx

 

[Schmelly]

So sorry

 

[buffycat]

am so sorry to hear of this......my thoughts are with you both....

 

[rachjim98]

so sorry to hear this, and for your loss. How are you doing today? If you need anything please feel free to let us know we are here for you. Again so sorry

 

[Peach Blossom]

so sorry to hear this, and for your loss. How are you doing today? If you need anything please feel free to let us know we are here for you. Again so sorry

To be honest, I'm not doing great today as my DH went away on business for 3 days today. Also had to cancel a private scan I had booked for next week. Also in quite a bit of pain and am worried about infection. But apart from all that I'm doing ok... Thank you for your words and thoughts.

 

[rachjim98]

 

[dan-o]

Oh goodness, I didn't know about this, I am so sorry sweetie.
Hope you are not on your own? If you are & need anyone to talk to/text/IM feel free PM me xxx

 

[Peach Blossom]

Oh goodness, I didn't know about this, I am so sorry sweetie.
Hope you are not on your own? If you are & need anyone to talk to/text/IM feel free PM me xxx

Thank you hon. My brother is with me now and have been to the Dr who's given me some hard core painkillers. I hope that you are ok, I know you've been through the mill lately too. Just as you've reached out to me, please feel free to PM me any time if you need to talk. xx