Having spoken at length with our consultant today, it seems that our little one has no chance of survival. The kidneys and lungs will never develop enough for him/her to live. they can't tell us when it would happen, but all in all likelihood, our baby will die well before reaching term. We have made the most painful decision imaginable and are opting for a termination. There is so much going on in my head. My baby was so longed for. We tried for a year before getting that fantastic result and know just how privaleged we are to have experienced that, having made some good friends in the TTC section, some of whom are still waiting. I have always believed you love the child and not it's abilities and as such we were not interested in genetic screening because it's not didn't seem important, we would love and care for any child. But to be told that there is no chance of our baby even having a limited chance of survival has come as such a huge blow. My baby is moving inside me and I am discussing post-mortems and funerals. I am heartbroken. I feel utterly helpless. My husband is devastated and it makes me so so sad to see how this is hurting him. But we are a strong unit and we will get through this. I'm so scared of so many things. Of the labour, of the grief, of telling our friends, of being judged... Sorry for the ramblings. I just needed to put some of this into words.