terrri86
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i hope you dont mind that it has taken me 18 months to be able to write this, i feel that it is time,
i fell pregnant with twins in april 2010, i was over the moon, they were to be our 1st and 2nd born little miracle bundles
we found out at 17 weeks we was having a boy and girl (private scan)
everything fine, bought a nice buggy started planing nursery.
went for another routine scan at 18 weeks to be told that one had gone to sleep. we would no longer be having two, two little lots of giggles, two little mops of curly hair, two little lots of big beautiful eyes to gaze into. 17th august is a day i will never forget
then came the panic, whats going to happen, will my surviving twin be affected? how can i grieve for one and be happy about the other i was torn im not going to lie
i would feel guilty for crying because i still had one, and i felt guilty for feeling happy for my survivor when i was still carrying my sleeping angel.
i had regular scan and thankfully our survivor was strong she was born at 38 weeks gestation and i called her grace, her brother alfie was born shortly after her, they never let me see him just told me he was there.
i was hoping we cud get a certificate for him, to prove he existed but they said they didnt do that, so all i have of him are his scan photos and my memories
i will tell grace all about her twin when she is older, but losing one twin and having to carry them both to term is somthing i cant even begin to describe.
i am blessed enough to be expecting again, but i panic like mad, i had no symptoms when alfie closed his eyes and went to sleep
thanks for listening to me xxxxxx
i fell pregnant with twins in april 2010, i was over the moon, they were to be our 1st and 2nd born little miracle bundles
we found out at 17 weeks we was having a boy and girl (private scan)
everything fine, bought a nice buggy started planing nursery.
went for another routine scan at 18 weeks to be told that one had gone to sleep. we would no longer be having two, two little lots of giggles, two little mops of curly hair, two little lots of big beautiful eyes to gaze into. 17th august is a day i will never forget
then came the panic, whats going to happen, will my surviving twin be affected? how can i grieve for one and be happy about the other i was torn im not going to lie
i would feel guilty for crying because i still had one, and i felt guilty for feeling happy for my survivor when i was still carrying my sleeping angel.
i had regular scan and thankfully our survivor was strong she was born at 38 weeks gestation and i called her grace, her brother alfie was born shortly after her, they never let me see him just told me he was there.
i was hoping we cud get a certificate for him, to prove he existed but they said they didnt do that, so all i have of him are his scan photos and my memories
i will tell grace all about her twin when she is older, but losing one twin and having to carry them both to term is somthing i cant even begin to describe.
i am blessed enough to be expecting again, but i panic like mad, i had no symptoms when alfie closed his eyes and went to sleep
thanks for listening to me xxxxxx