Cassie96
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Ok, so I know I've posted this before but I decided to do it again (for people who haven't read it) and include my questions.
When I met my boyfriend (now ex) he was the kindest, sweetest person I'd ever met and treated me like royalty. The relationship was great but within 3 months I found I was pregnant. He was happy but I wasn't so sure because I'm still young (im 16 and ive left school, hes 16 but hes currently at a behaviour school)
I decided to keep it because I knew I would be able to cope and I felt like it happened for a reason.
At 14 weeks I had a really bad bleed when i was out with him and when i told him he walked off and left me crying, i was then taken to hospital and found out everything was fine but after I became really depressed for some time, this put a strain on the relationship as I didn't want to leave the house, I was scared about everything, even going to the toilet incase I found blood. He wasn't there for me at all and he used to constantly put me down, swear at me, called me horrible names and made me feel guilty for not going up his house and not having sex with him but at the time i believed it was my fault. I just agreed with everything he said.
at 20 weeks I finally felt a lot better in myself and me and him started to get back on track, I forgive him for everything he said and did but then once when I went to his, he put a massive whole in his mums living room door and he got really angry at his mum for no reason and started screaming and swearing at her then went upstairs and started punching the walls in his bedroom and throwing things around when I went to see if he was okay his room was trashed, he'd broken his draws and smashed up his door. I'd told him how scared I was that he was so violent and it was a side of him I wished I hadn't seen and he promised it wouldn't happen again, but it happened several times after that, he'd loose his temper for no reason, smash things up and started blaming it on me and tell me I caused it.
At about 25 weeks everything got worse and things ended in him telling me he was going to commit suicide, and every conversation we had always ended in him screaming down the phone at me for nothing. He's also very jealous so he made me delete my Facebook, he deleated all my male friends out of my phone and basically stopped my contact with my friends all together. He would have a go at me for wearing makeup or doing something nice with my hair. i also didnt want to have sex due to sickness etc. so he used to tell me he was going to sleep with other girls because he missed having sex. i used to go to bed crying every night an finally decided to end it in November after he screamed insults down the phone to me in front of my mum.
We have been split up ever since but he hasn't left me alone, I've always told him the dates for my appointments, scans and everything but he hasn't turned up to any of them, he's only came to two midwife appointments (my early ones), my dating scan, and my 20 week scan.
since then I've had all my routine appointments and 5 scans.
He used to send me over 100 texts a day all asking me to take him back or to move on? and when i dont reply, i get called names, sworn at, thretened and then he turns it around on me and makes me feel like its my fault. Hes recently just told me that If i dont get back with him he will kill himself and it will be my fault.
He's also told me he doesn't want to be at the birth because he never wants to see me again. He hasn't baught anything for our child, I've bought everything! and he never asks about the pregnancy or if I'm okay... He even asked me not to put him on the birth certificate so he didn't have to pay maintenance!!
^this is just some of it, there's alot more!
I honestly have tried my very best and couldn't of done any more, my family have treated him like one of there own and he just throws it back in my face all the time .
I have a family nurse/health visitor who visits me weekly and she knows more about the situation, she thinks I'm very mature for my age and constantly tells me that I couldn't of tried harder to involve him. she's worried for mine and my childs health and well being because of the stress he causes me. i want him to be a good dad and i want him to be in my childs life but she thinks I should consider my options about letting him in my childs life as she doesn't believe he will be a good role model for my child.
now we hardly talk at all.
Last week we had a conversation about why i wouldnt ever go back to him in which i fully broke down and told him how he actually makes me feel.
which ended in him saying he thinks I'd been cheating in the relationship (I wouldn't dream of that, I think it's discusting), that I was a dirty little slag and so on... He constantly tells me to "f*** off", and says "I only care about this baby I couldn't give a f*** what happens to you"
It really just upsets me everytime he talks to me like this. i wouldn't ever dream of talking to him like that, after all he's the one I fell in love with.
I've never hurt him or spoken to him like that, I'm genuinely nice to him even when he starts with me and I try my hardest to ignore the insults.
So, my questions are..
Do I have him at the birth or not?
What should I do about the birth certificate?
Does anybody know who to get advice from when it comes to supervised visits etc.?
Maintenance?
And some general advice on all the rest of the stuff ?
Ps. Really sorry about how long it is :$
When I met my boyfriend (now ex) he was the kindest, sweetest person I'd ever met and treated me like royalty. The relationship was great but within 3 months I found I was pregnant. He was happy but I wasn't so sure because I'm still young (im 16 and ive left school, hes 16 but hes currently at a behaviour school)
I decided to keep it because I knew I would be able to cope and I felt like it happened for a reason.
At 14 weeks I had a really bad bleed when i was out with him and when i told him he walked off and left me crying, i was then taken to hospital and found out everything was fine but after I became really depressed for some time, this put a strain on the relationship as I didn't want to leave the house, I was scared about everything, even going to the toilet incase I found blood. He wasn't there for me at all and he used to constantly put me down, swear at me, called me horrible names and made me feel guilty for not going up his house and not having sex with him but at the time i believed it was my fault. I just agreed with everything he said.
at 20 weeks I finally felt a lot better in myself and me and him started to get back on track, I forgive him for everything he said and did but then once when I went to his, he put a massive whole in his mums living room door and he got really angry at his mum for no reason and started screaming and swearing at her then went upstairs and started punching the walls in his bedroom and throwing things around when I went to see if he was okay his room was trashed, he'd broken his draws and smashed up his door. I'd told him how scared I was that he was so violent and it was a side of him I wished I hadn't seen and he promised it wouldn't happen again, but it happened several times after that, he'd loose his temper for no reason, smash things up and started blaming it on me and tell me I caused it.
At about 25 weeks everything got worse and things ended in him telling me he was going to commit suicide, and every conversation we had always ended in him screaming down the phone at me for nothing. He's also very jealous so he made me delete my Facebook, he deleated all my male friends out of my phone and basically stopped my contact with my friends all together. He would have a go at me for wearing makeup or doing something nice with my hair. i also didnt want to have sex due to sickness etc. so he used to tell me he was going to sleep with other girls because he missed having sex. i used to go to bed crying every night an finally decided to end it in November after he screamed insults down the phone to me in front of my mum.
We have been split up ever since but he hasn't left me alone, I've always told him the dates for my appointments, scans and everything but he hasn't turned up to any of them, he's only came to two midwife appointments (my early ones), my dating scan, and my 20 week scan.
since then I've had all my routine appointments and 5 scans.
He used to send me over 100 texts a day all asking me to take him back or to move on? and when i dont reply, i get called names, sworn at, thretened and then he turns it around on me and makes me feel like its my fault. Hes recently just told me that If i dont get back with him he will kill himself and it will be my fault.
He's also told me he doesn't want to be at the birth because he never wants to see me again. He hasn't baught anything for our child, I've bought everything! and he never asks about the pregnancy or if I'm okay... He even asked me not to put him on the birth certificate so he didn't have to pay maintenance!!
^this is just some of it, there's alot more!
I honestly have tried my very best and couldn't of done any more, my family have treated him like one of there own and he just throws it back in my face all the time .
I have a family nurse/health visitor who visits me weekly and she knows more about the situation, she thinks I'm very mature for my age and constantly tells me that I couldn't of tried harder to involve him. she's worried for mine and my childs health and well being because of the stress he causes me. i want him to be a good dad and i want him to be in my childs life but she thinks I should consider my options about letting him in my childs life as she doesn't believe he will be a good role model for my child.
now we hardly talk at all.
Last week we had a conversation about why i wouldnt ever go back to him in which i fully broke down and told him how he actually makes me feel.
which ended in him saying he thinks I'd been cheating in the relationship (I wouldn't dream of that, I think it's discusting), that I was a dirty little slag and so on... He constantly tells me to "f*** off", and says "I only care about this baby I couldn't give a f*** what happens to you"
It really just upsets me everytime he talks to me like this. i wouldn't ever dream of talking to him like that, after all he's the one I fell in love with.
I've never hurt him or spoken to him like that, I'm genuinely nice to him even when he starts with me and I try my hardest to ignore the insults.
So, my questions are..
Do I have him at the birth or not?
What should I do about the birth certificate?
Does anybody know who to get advice from when it comes to supervised visits etc.?
Maintenance?
And some general advice on all the rest of the stuff ?
Ps. Really sorry about how long it is :$