aimee-lou
Totally Outnumbered!!
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Hi all,
I'm nearly 36w with number 3. I have 2 little boys and while my GD (if you can call it that) isn't massive, I've always said to my hubby that I wanted another boy. I've been preparing myself for a girl, going through the usual team yellow routine (never found out with any of them) and sorting out my stockpile of neutral baby clothes which is massive now as have accumulated rather a lot over the course of 3 babies lol. However, as we get closer, and I start to worry about labour, delivery, birth and logistics I'm starting to think about bringing baby home, about names, about the general addition to the family and I'm really struggling with the concept that we may have a daughter 1 month from now. I don't know why this is so difficult for me to deal with. It's gotten worse - in fact when I was PG with DS1 hubby and I had actually discussed the concept that we would prefer to have a girl. We've gone full circle now, and I feel so guilty that I may be in the slightest bit disappointed in my child. It's not this baby\s fault that they're the gender they are..... and I know I'll love a little girl every bit as much as a little boy, but I am still worried that instead of smiling and saying hello when she's born, I'm going to feel sadness and not bond with her like I have my boys. I don't want that....I want that wonder and that instant love I've felt with my 2 children I already have. I just feel like my strength is failing me now it's so close.
Any advice anyone?
I'm nearly 36w with number 3. I have 2 little boys and while my GD (if you can call it that) isn't massive, I've always said to my hubby that I wanted another boy. I've been preparing myself for a girl, going through the usual team yellow routine (never found out with any of them) and sorting out my stockpile of neutral baby clothes which is massive now as have accumulated rather a lot over the course of 3 babies lol. However, as we get closer, and I start to worry about labour, delivery, birth and logistics I'm starting to think about bringing baby home, about names, about the general addition to the family and I'm really struggling with the concept that we may have a daughter 1 month from now. I don't know why this is so difficult for me to deal with. It's gotten worse - in fact when I was PG with DS1 hubby and I had actually discussed the concept that we would prefer to have a girl. We've gone full circle now, and I feel so guilty that I may be in the slightest bit disappointed in my child. It's not this baby\s fault that they're the gender they are..... and I know I'll love a little girl every bit as much as a little boy, but I am still worried that instead of smiling and saying hello when she's born, I'm going to feel sadness and not bond with her like I have my boys. I don't want that....I want that wonder and that instant love I've felt with my 2 children I already have. I just feel like my strength is failing me now it's so close.
Any advice anyone?
despite the possibility of gender disappointment! I hope so anxious about the gender that I am finding out next in 4 days and am STILL freaking out. 
Still not 100% about things....still worried, but I think I'm going to be until all uncertainty is out of the window. Less than 6 weeks to go.....eek!
! I think the odds are in your favour!!
Enjoy your newest little boy!
