With Abi, I was sat at school having just gone back in the september and it was just after my birthday in octiber, i hadnt been out for my birthday but felt like rubbish all day longthe day after, it kept coming in waves and disappearing.I'd never really thought i could be pregnant at all as we'd always been so careful. after about 2 days and people making jokes about things and saying stuff to staff about me having a drinking problem, becuase i was getting sick lol
the 2nd November, my Head of year asked me to go to her office, she was concerned about me being ill so much recently and asked if there was anything she should know etc, implying i had a drinking problem, she was going on about how people drink to make them selves look better but it didnt work. I told her i hadnt been drinking at all and didnt know why i was ill, she sent me off to the nurses office who was going to do the checks etc, as meningitis was rife around that time in school, any ways, she asked if i could be pregnant i was like, nope, she asked how i was certain, i was like becuase we use protection, im not stupid, she asked me when my last period was, i was horrified lol and as soon as i looked in my diary i KNEW! she gave me a test and sent me to the toilets, came up as clear as day two lines next to the C & T i was so shocked, she came up to find me about 20 mins later, i was just stuck, didnt know what to do, she signed me out of school and let me go home. I walked to Joshs's works and thought about how i was goign to tell him, scared shitless lol, but he was great about it, i slipped it into his desk and asked to borrow a pen, he got out the 'pen' that first came to hand lol. He looked at it, and was all smiley and happy and hugged me etc, then kind of stiopped dead and was like, wait a minute, have you PEED! on this? it was so funny lmao
anyways, with Izzie, we had just found out Abi was ill, around this time last year, near christmas, and Abi was in hospital, just having been diagnosed with her Leukaemia, and we were asked if we wanted to give blood or donate bone marrow to help, we both agreed to gove blood, so of course they took samples from us and disappeared off. about 3 hours later, her consultant came over, i was in with Abi, Josh went outside and spoke to him, apparently he said something along the lines of, we can take 2 pints from you mr matthews, but im afriad we arent allowed to take any from your wife in her condition, is she aware that giving blood can damage the baby? so yeah, he knew and i didnt! my periods hadnt ever returned to normal since Abi so i just suspected nothing, yet i was already just over 4 months pregnant, looking back now i dont know how i missed it, but i just wasnt really ill, and when i was i think it was stress related, so i ignored it.
With Kabe it was easy haha, i suspected but totally thought i was wrong, after all, Izzie was only 9 weeks old, how could i be? and we'd only *cough* ed twice since she was born. We still had a test left in the house anyway from my sister coming and testing at our house, so anyway, we took it, i didnt really want to know, i thought it was rubbish lol and it wouldnt be positive. i put it on the toilet seat and then left it, went down and carried on what i was doing, fed Izzie, tidied up, tried to keep myself occupied, my sister rung and asked us to go over to her house for a bit, so we got ready and went lol. My older sister came round to see us lol, and we werent in. She has a key cos our house is on 4 storeys and we disconnected the doorbell so she knws where we keep the key and let herself in. She must have gone into the bathroom for something, cos we returned home and found a sticky post-iit note thing on the door saying congrats, well happy for you! hope you dont mind me looking, looking forward to a new niece/nephew, Jodi x lmao, so once again, someone else knew before i did that i was pregnant. i kind of knew if i admit it, but thought i was being stupid. but no lol, just over 5 months later, Kabe arrived!
not doing it again though! never lol