The attack of the green eye monster

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The title says it all im jelous. Im jelous of the person i LEAST expected to be jelous of EVER! My niece. The thing is that she is going to college eventhough she was suppose to start last year but thats ot. Im jelous because i feel like its suppose to be me going to college! I was the one with straight As in math, i was the one that graduated with honers from high school. She made ok grades, she acted up alot with her parents etc. My OH thinks that i regrett my babies which i dont i just dont know how to explain to him how i feel. Im @ home 24/7 with the kids and cleaning since we only have one car and if we do go out its to go grocery shopping. Im saving for college but the reality is that i cant go until my children are in school because we cant afford a babysitter or daycare. My mom has offer to take care of them but she is 66 years old i dont think she has the energy to do that plus i dont feel right. I really dont want to take online classes because what if its bs and i waste my money for nothing

 

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Ugh i even hoped that she would flunk her classes which i know is wrong but i just couldnt help it. I feel terrible i should be happy for her but im not!

 

[QuintinsMommy]

there are ways you can still go to college and have LOs

 

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I was suppose to take these test called the SAT and ACT. At my SAT i was too sick to go and when i went to my ACT my niece forgot her id and she begged me not to go in with out her. Im the kind of person that cant say no and i felt bad for her. Now i know it was a stupid decision on my part and i truely regrett it. Now i have to find a college that will take me without having to take the test. Which im finding hard. My friends would tell me that i needed to learn to step up to my niece and tell her no. She would know that i would always say yes to everything she asked as a favor because i felt bad for her. Now im mad @ myself for being too nice and always saying yes to her.

 

[sleepinbeauty]

there are ways you can still go to college and have LOs

You beat me to it! You can do it, mama. Tons of other moms do it every day!

I was suppose to take these test called the SAT and ACT. At my SAT i was too sick to go and when i went to my ACT my niece forgot her id and she begged me not to go in with out her. Im the kind of person that cant say no and i felt bad for her. Now i know it was a stupid decision on my part and i truely regrett it. Now i have to find a college that will take me without having to take the test. Which im finding hard. My friends would tell me that i needed to learn to step up to my niece and tell her no. She would know that i would always say yes to everything she asked as a favor because i felt bad for her. Now im mad @ myself for being too nice and always saying yes to her.

What I'm finding as I go along is that you can't kick yourself too hard for too long about the past. You have to get your sh*t together and move forward. You can't change what has bee done/undone already, ykwim? SAT time is now but there is a second round in a few months. I bet if you reviewed a few things that yo'd do great. collegeboard.com has all kinds of info on that stuff, colleges, etc. (Where are you from? I'm from Ulster County, NY.)

 

[BrEeZeY]

i understand i was friends with the class below me and they all left for college and i will admit i cried cuz they all moved away and i got left behind i was really jelous of SIL when she got a cute apartment and started classes this fall, i wana go back to school SOOOOOOOOOOOO bad and OH and i have this all planned out and are saving when and where we can but i jst want to so bad or jst have a hobby so that it gives me, time to teach myself and learn something! i know EXACTLY what u mean! i hope u can find some way or something that fills that void and let me know cuz im having a really hard time :S


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