Okay its a bit of a long story, when we lost the baby back in September, MiL was okay about it, suggesting that she would come 'soon' to visit and help us look after J so that we could recover etc, i thought that was quite nice of her, however she was increasingly vague about when that would be and finally i said to OH 'just ask her outright when she is visiting but i dont know if i am coming or going here' obviously lots of people wanted to visit and pay their respects etc
so he asks her and she says 'oh i simply dont have time to come and see you anytime until at least the new year' which i thought was a bit strange
anyway, i was quite relieved, my MiL is more than a bit like Judy Dench in the new Pride and Prejudice, hard to read, incredibly demanding and as unfeeling as a robot.
Anyway, then she starts bugging us about when we are going to visit her in Wales, continually asking to speak to me so that she can ask me when we are visiting (OH is crap with stuff like that) and never bothering to ask how we are, wether we are okay or even so much as asking IF we would like to visit! Just assuming that we would and that everything was 'merry' or whatever, so i arranged it for December 17th thinking that it would be okay and we could get it out the way before Christmas and OH was pretty keen, i was worried about it anyway and had made plans to meet a friend who lived nearby and spent a night or two with her to avoid having to ignore my child's death...
Anyway it turned out that 17th December fell just a few days shy of our portmortem results appointment and so i expressed to OH how uncomfy i was with the idea of going to see her and that i didnt think i could just put to one side my incredibly raw feelings about the fetal death etc, he said that he really wanted to go and didnt want to explain to her that i didnt want to see her. I told him in that case he could go with j and i would stay here, then he got upset that he would have to explain why i didnt want to see her and he didnt want to do that
So i ended up emailing her and saying 'i'm really sorry, we are getting the results a few days later and i just dont know how i am going to feel so i dont want to plan to go to Wales, so sorry.
I didnt even get a reply, not a 'its okay, take time, all the best' or anything! I was quite hurt by that
then she phones the day after the postmortem results, i was thinking she might just ask how we were, i was surprised to see the call, besides the initial 'I'll come and help' she hadn't mentioned the baby, me, or asked after us ever at all.
Nope, she wanted to tell Liam that she WOULD be visiting mid January, because she was going to be visiting other people in the south of the country so we should expect her on about the 15th FOR A WEEK
Well, my baby would have been due on the 18th, i had already told Liam that i didnt want anyone here in January really because i didnt know how i would feel and that i certainly didnt want anyone here on the due date.
So basically he says 'It would be great to see you mum, glad you can stay for a while????' and i thought (having not heard the other bit of the phone call) that she was coming in Feb or March
Nope, they had just arranged to have her here over the due date even though OH KNEW how i felt about it.
So i was pissed off with him and he responded by ignoring me for a whole night, being all lovey-lovey with me when people came over (having just ignored me when we were in private) and then reacting like i was the biggest bitch in the world when i didnt return his hugs and kisses! So basically systematically making me look like a bitch AND making me feel guilty for not wanting her here
that escalated into a huge row but anyway MiL
So then he finally gets round to telling her (by text) that January is not a good time having been told he either sorts it out of doesnt bother coming home and she sends a message back saying 'okay, let me know when i am allowed to come'
I mean really! Could she not have said 'thats okay, i understand' or better still JUST ASKED IF SHE COULD COME THE DAY OF THE DUE DATE RATHER THAN ASSUMING IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!!
horrid woman
So that all happened, here we are at Christmas, we have had the Postmortem results and complete STRANGERS are more interested in the results than she is
she calls on Christmas day demands to speak to me, i was on the verge of tears all day anyway and tells me that i must be having a WONDERFUL day because J is at the right age and could i tell her when shes allowed to come and stay. I said February is fine and then managed to give the phone back to L but once again she failed to ask how i was, even suggesting that i was GREAT grrrrr
NYE, i'm really sad, cried most of the night etc, Liam gets an email from a relative which says
'Hi Liam, just spent Christmas with your Mum, Sisters and Grandparents! Wanted to wish you my best, you and Fiona must be very excited at the new arrival coming later this month I believe? How exciting for you both! Do keep in touch'
So we email this woman back, explaining that the child was stillborn and what not and she (on NY's Day) says;
'Oh, i am so sorry, no body mentioned it to me or your Auntie or Uncle, we all asked after you and everyone said you were doing really well, nobody mentioned the baby i am so sorry i have brought it up'
So his SODDING mother has spent 3 days with relatives of Liam, told them we are doing really well and everyone is happy having just spoken to us about the fact that we are feeling sensitive due to the post mortem etc and hasn't even BOTHERED to mention it to Liams family!!
I think a mother should offer protection and support and i am SO ANGRY that this woman has offered me, nor Liam either.
to land us with the job of hearing from people expecting to hear about a child and hearing that, to put them through that What sort of person is she???
Whats worse is that i know this woman is going to want to hold, play with and connect with my next child (provided it doesnt die of course, which of course would render it useless and inconsequential to her) and i dont want her to have ANYTHING do do with my children we have already decided not to tell her about the pregnancy until i am 25 weeks, obviously unless i am capable of birthing a live one it will mean nothing to her...
I am livid, furious and i have to SEE and spend A WEEK with this person next month I cannot think of anything worse right now
so he asks her and she says 'oh i simply dont have time to come and see you anytime until at least the new year' which i thought was a bit strange
anyway, i was quite relieved, my MiL is more than a bit like Judy Dench in the new Pride and Prejudice, hard to read, incredibly demanding and as unfeeling as a robot.
Anyway, then she starts bugging us about when we are going to visit her in Wales, continually asking to speak to me so that she can ask me when we are visiting (OH is crap with stuff like that) and never bothering to ask how we are, wether we are okay or even so much as asking IF we would like to visit! Just assuming that we would and that everything was 'merry' or whatever, so i arranged it for December 17th thinking that it would be okay and we could get it out the way before Christmas and OH was pretty keen, i was worried about it anyway and had made plans to meet a friend who lived nearby and spent a night or two with her to avoid having to ignore my child's death...
Anyway it turned out that 17th December fell just a few days shy of our portmortem results appointment and so i expressed to OH how uncomfy i was with the idea of going to see her and that i didnt think i could just put to one side my incredibly raw feelings about the fetal death etc, he said that he really wanted to go and didnt want to explain to her that i didnt want to see her. I told him in that case he could go with j and i would stay here, then he got upset that he would have to explain why i didnt want to see her and he didnt want to do that
So i ended up emailing her and saying 'i'm really sorry, we are getting the results a few days later and i just dont know how i am going to feel so i dont want to plan to go to Wales, so sorry.
I didnt even get a reply, not a 'its okay, take time, all the best' or anything! I was quite hurt by that
then she phones the day after the postmortem results, i was thinking she might just ask how we were, i was surprised to see the call, besides the initial 'I'll come and help' she hadn't mentioned the baby, me, or asked after us ever at all.
Nope, she wanted to tell Liam that she WOULD be visiting mid January, because she was going to be visiting other people in the south of the country so we should expect her on about the 15th FOR A WEEK
Well, my baby would have been due on the 18th, i had already told Liam that i didnt want anyone here in January really because i didnt know how i would feel and that i certainly didnt want anyone here on the due date.
So basically he says 'It would be great to see you mum, glad you can stay for a while????' and i thought (having not heard the other bit of the phone call) that she was coming in Feb or March
Nope, they had just arranged to have her here over the due date even though OH KNEW how i felt about it.
So i was pissed off with him and he responded by ignoring me for a whole night, being all lovey-lovey with me when people came over (having just ignored me when we were in private) and then reacting like i was the biggest bitch in the world when i didnt return his hugs and kisses! So basically systematically making me look like a bitch AND making me feel guilty for not wanting her here
that escalated into a huge row but anyway MiL
So then he finally gets round to telling her (by text) that January is not a good time having been told he either sorts it out of doesnt bother coming home and she sends a message back saying 'okay, let me know when i am allowed to come'
I mean really! Could she not have said 'thats okay, i understand' or better still JUST ASKED IF SHE COULD COME THE DAY OF THE DUE DATE RATHER THAN ASSUMING IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!!
horrid woman
So that all happened, here we are at Christmas, we have had the Postmortem results and complete STRANGERS are more interested in the results than she is
she calls on Christmas day demands to speak to me, i was on the verge of tears all day anyway and tells me that i must be having a WONDERFUL day because J is at the right age and could i tell her when shes allowed to come and stay. I said February is fine and then managed to give the phone back to L but once again she failed to ask how i was, even suggesting that i was GREAT grrrrr
NYE, i'm really sad, cried most of the night etc, Liam gets an email from a relative which says
'Hi Liam, just spent Christmas with your Mum, Sisters and Grandparents! Wanted to wish you my best, you and Fiona must be very excited at the new arrival coming later this month I believe? How exciting for you both! Do keep in touch'
So we email this woman back, explaining that the child was stillborn and what not and she (on NY's Day) says;
'Oh, i am so sorry, no body mentioned it to me or your Auntie or Uncle, we all asked after you and everyone said you were doing really well, nobody mentioned the baby i am so sorry i have brought it up'
So his SODDING mother has spent 3 days with relatives of Liam, told them we are doing really well and everyone is happy having just spoken to us about the fact that we are feeling sensitive due to the post mortem etc and hasn't even BOTHERED to mention it to Liams family!!
I think a mother should offer protection and support and i am SO ANGRY that this woman has offered me, nor Liam either.
to land us with the job of hearing from people expecting to hear about a child and hearing that, to put them through that What sort of person is she???
Whats worse is that i know this woman is going to want to hold, play with and connect with my next child (provided it doesnt die of course, which of course would render it useless and inconsequential to her) and i dont want her to have ANYTHING do do with my children we have already decided not to tell her about the pregnancy until i am 25 weeks, obviously unless i am capable of birthing a live one it will mean nothing to her...
I am livid, furious and i have to SEE and spend A WEEK with this person next month I cannot think of anything worse right now