Things are starting to get stressfull *updated*

[rachelrhin0]

Ok, this is my 3rd pregnancy and I don't have any children in my home. My 1st daughter was born at 28w3d. She was severley growth restricted. She was the size of a 20 weeker when she was born. She only lived for months before passing away in the NICU at the hospital. My 2nd pregnancy was going fine. At 20 weeks Hannah started to fall behind in growth. At 32 weeks I no longer felt Hannah move. I went to the hospital to find out her heart had stopped beating. She was born at 32w2d and was the size od a 28 weeker. Again, another baby growth restricted and yet another baby dead. So a year after Hannah was stillborn we decided to TTC again. We got pregnant on the 1st try and now we are expecting a little boy, Noah James. In the begining I was worried b/c I bled for 2 weeks. U/s showed no issuses with the bleeding and it finally stopped. At 12w6d I found out I had complete placenta previa. At 18w5d I still had complete placenta previa. So now I'm at the point in my pregnancies that my babies tend to start having growth problems. Friday and Saturday the baby wasn't moving much. I started to freak out and couldn't stop crying. I was stressing out to the max. I felt like I may be killing yet another baby. So I went to L&D and was hooked up to a monitor and all of a sudden Noah started moving like his normal self. I was relieved but all the emotions of another loss are getting stronger and stronger. Most people worry more so in the begining of pregnancy in fear of a m/c but my fears start later. I want this baby to grow good and be born healthy. I don't want him to have to live in the NICU like my 1st daughter. All the tubes and wires, heel sticks and blood draws. It's so painful to watch. I have always wanted a baby to love and raise. My husband and I just want a family. It's just getting harder and harder. I got back to my MFM doctor on the 8th of April (not this Thursday but next) for a growth scan. I'm just hopinh and praying that he is measuring on time.


UPDATE!!

The appointment went good. Noah is growing on time!!!! Actually to be exact, he is 1 day AHEAD of schedule!! They are guessing him to weigh 1 pound 8 ounces. We got a really good face shot while we were there. We could see his nose, lips, and chin SOOO clear. I couldn't believe how clear it was for a 2d. My placenta's blood flow looks good. I still have complete previa and they don't have any hope of it moving. They said it's PERFECTLY centered over my cervix. They said from here on out if I have any concerns and feel like something is wrong or feel any pains that concern me to NOT call the doctor and go straight to L&D. He told me to do kick counts daily. He said 4 kicks in one hour and I can stop. If I don't get 4 kicks in one hour do one additional hour and if I don't get 4 kicks that hour to go to L&D. They are planning on giving me the steriod shot at 34 weeks and do an amniocentesis at 35 weeks. If Noah's lungs are developed they will take him between 35 and 36 weeks. That means I have 11-12 weeks left! He told me to start seeing my regular OB every 2 weeks now. But overall a great appt! We have broke our record (no growth restriction by 20 weeks)! NO IUGR!!! I couldn't be happier!

 

[Beadette]

I'm so sorry about your babies! And can completely see why you are so terrified about this pregnancy! I just want to send you my love and hugs and I will pray for you and your little man that he grows big and strong!! Xxxx

 

[blondee]

Hi Rachel

Wow, you have really been through it. I am so sorry for both your losses. Have the doctors managed to find out what is causing this? Or do they put it down to the most terrible bad luck?

I hope Noah continues to grow as he should and that your pregnancy goes without a hitch.

Keep us posted.

Michelle X

 

[rachelrhin0]

Blondee, no they haven't a clue as to why this keeps happening. I have had TONS of test upon test run and nothing shows up. I do have a bicournate uterus with a possible septum but they havn't said that it is a cause for any of my problems. That's what makes it so much harder. If we KNEW what the problem was there would be more chance to FIX the problem. Not knowing is just like walking blind.

 

[Tulip]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious daughters. Sending much love and growing vibes to you and Noah xxx

 

[Mummy2Asher]

im so so sorry for your loss of your beautiful girls. im praying so much for your little boy and that your growth scan goes well. xxx

 

[millwallrose4]

I am so sorry to hear of your terrible losses, but you are so brave to try again. I will pray that everything goes well for your little boy and that somehow you manage to battle through these next few months.

 

[hekate]

aww hun! my heart goes out to you! and I hope that everything will be fine for you and you will go home with a healthy screaming baby!
I understand your worry and am already terrified of getting to the stage were I lost my son Indigo....I found the pregnancy thread in the stillbirth and neonatal loss section very helpful.....here is the link if you would like to join us...https://www.babyandbump.com/stillbi...4582-pregnancy-after-loss-support-thread.html

 

[LilBean2010]

Hugs to you, hun. I cannot imagine what you must be feeling but try to relax as much as you can. Know you are doing everything you can for your precious baby boy! Are they monitoring you with regular ultrasounds for growth restriction?

I have a friend who lost a baby at 33 weeks due to growth restriction that was diagnosed at 24 weeks. They had hoped for the best... Her next pregnancy developed the same problem at 28 weeks and when the restriction wasn't getting better they delivered the baby at 30 weeks for the sake of allowing her to grow, and thrive, etc. She spent a month in NICU and is now and thriving 5 year old with no issues.

Are you seeing someone who specializes in high risk pregnancy?

Adding you to my prayers, my Dear...

 

[rachelrhin0]

Hugs to you, hun. I cannot imagine what you must be feeling but try to relax as much as you can. Know you are doing everything you can for your precious baby boy! Are they monitoring you with regular ultrasounds for growth restriction?

I have a friend who lost a baby at 33 weeks due to growth restriction that was diagnosed at 24 weeks. They had hoped for the best... Her next pregnancy developed the same problem at 28 weeks and when the restriction wasn't getting better they delivered the baby at 30 weeks for the sake of allowing her to grow, and thrive, etc. She spent a month in NICU and is now and thriving 5 year old with no issues.

Are you seeing someone who specializes in high risk pregnancy?

Adding you to my prayers, my Dear...

Yes I have regular growth scans. I go for another scan at 24 weeks. My doctor in my last 2 pregnancies was a freaking JOKE! He wouldn't do another u/s after 21 weeks even knowing my history with my 1st pregnancy and knowing that THAT pregnancy she was already a week behind. So needless to say I have a new doctor. My regular OB is a high risk OB. I also see a MFM doctor for all my my scans. They were telling me that if IUGR starts in this pregnancy they will likely just take him and put him in the NICU. Fine by me! I just want to have my baby here and alive!

 

[rachelrhin0]

Update posted in the OP.

 

[bky]

Ooh, sounds good!

 

[Carmello_01]

Brilliant update, that is just fabulous!

 

[jennyellen13]

so glad Noah is growing perfectly i also lost a baby to IUGR and she died at 25weeks. praying this time my little bubs grows ok xx

 

[hekate]

that sounds great! so pleased for you!

 

[Las78]

Thanks for the update hun, really pleased for you, thats such good news x

 

[izzysmummy]

Hi, i am so sorry for the terrible time you have had and truly hope your baby boy is born a super duper 8lb baby! I am sure everything will be fine this time hun xx

 

[Jox]

i am so sorry for the loss of your precious girls

I found out at 35+6 on dec 30th that my son had grown his wings...he was born 3 days later and was the size of 33weeks. nothing has shown up with placenta etc so we have no cause but it was obviously something to do with growth.

I am now 13 weeks preg and shitting myself...we will be having regular growth scans every 2 weeks and hopefully both you and me will have full term screaming babys in our arms in the coming months.

Please feel free to visit the stillbirth, neonatal loss section where we also have a PAL thread where we all try and support each other.

:HUGS:

xxx

 

[SugarKisses]

Wow, hun, im really pleased for you. I dont know if you remember me but we talked briefly last year. I have just lost my 2nd baby, he was 2 days old. But I am OVER THE MOON for you to be preg and to hear everything is going well.

I totally agree about not being able to relax once the 12 week mark has gone. Most people can easily relax thinking they are safe, but we know too well that isnt the case

Im here if you want to talk x x x