Mooshie
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Hi Ladies, I wondered if I could come and join in here?
I'm having a really bad day today, I've been reading around the boards again (it's been a long time since i've been here) and i'm not really sure where I fit in.
Here's my story ......
I am 36 (DH is 35) and we have a son who is 3 1/2. I fell pregnant with him in 2011 after 5 months of TTC'ing. During my pregnancy, I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes and he was induced at 36 weeks which ended in an emergency c-section.
In 2012, i fell pregnant again after 10 months TTC'ing and unfortunately I lost the baby at 8 weeks and that was when I stopped coming here. It was too much for me reading about everyone's BFPs and after my MC everything was so raw and numb. I blamed myself (and still do), and I don't think I have ever gotten over it properly. I wanted that baby so so much!
Anyway, DH didn't want to start trying properly again straight away, I think he was scared that I would lose another and so although we weren't preventing anything happening, we didn't actively try for a year either. I didn't use any OPKs or chart during that time, but I did watch CM etc and in secret from my DH would take HPTs hoping that just maybe there would be a line. There never was!
2013 comes around and late last year we decide to start trying for another baby. By then I had been having symptoms that my endo had come back and in February this year, I had another lap to blast away endo and some adhesions (I previously had one in 2006 for the same thing).
Since last year, I have been using OPKs again and noting all my symptoms of OV and checking CM etc. This month typically, I forgot to buy some and its been a really weird month so I have absolutely NO idea where I am in my cycle!
(I could be 13dpo if I go by my initial thoughts but last week had EWCM again for 3-4 days so I could be anything from 4dpo to 8dpo!)
This is officially month #13 of TTC'ing and 25 months since my MC without even a squinter of a line.
I don't know what could be causing the secondary infertility. It could be my diabetes, it could be problems caused by my endo (although when they were in there in February, the surgeon said everything looked healthy) or it could be nothing and it's just taking longer this time. All I know is it's so very frustrating.
I'm feeling so down today as i'm in complete limbo. I'm very much doubting i'll get a BFP this month as although we covered both times we thought I was OV'ing this month, it's been such a weird one. I'm not sure if i even did ovulate so at the moment i'm not holding out much hope.
So, here I am looking for some advice and support I suppose.
xxx
I'm having a really bad day today, I've been reading around the boards again (it's been a long time since i've been here) and i'm not really sure where I fit in.
Here's my story ......
I am 36 (DH is 35) and we have a son who is 3 1/2. I fell pregnant with him in 2011 after 5 months of TTC'ing. During my pregnancy, I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes and he was induced at 36 weeks which ended in an emergency c-section.
In 2012, i fell pregnant again after 10 months TTC'ing and unfortunately I lost the baby at 8 weeks and that was when I stopped coming here. It was too much for me reading about everyone's BFPs and after my MC everything was so raw and numb. I blamed myself (and still do), and I don't think I have ever gotten over it properly. I wanted that baby so so much!
Anyway, DH didn't want to start trying properly again straight away, I think he was scared that I would lose another and so although we weren't preventing anything happening, we didn't actively try for a year either. I didn't use any OPKs or chart during that time, but I did watch CM etc and in secret from my DH would take HPTs hoping that just maybe there would be a line. There never was!
2013 comes around and late last year we decide to start trying for another baby. By then I had been having symptoms that my endo had come back and in February this year, I had another lap to blast away endo and some adhesions (I previously had one in 2006 for the same thing).
Since last year, I have been using OPKs again and noting all my symptoms of OV and checking CM etc. This month typically, I forgot to buy some and its been a really weird month so I have absolutely NO idea where I am in my cycle!
(I could be 13dpo if I go by my initial thoughts but last week had EWCM again for 3-4 days so I could be anything from 4dpo to 8dpo!)This is officially month #13 of TTC'ing and 25 months since my MC without even a squinter of a line.
I don't know what could be causing the secondary infertility. It could be my diabetes, it could be problems caused by my endo (although when they were in there in February, the surgeon said everything looked healthy) or it could be nothing and it's just taking longer this time. All I know is it's so very frustrating.
I'm feeling so down today as i'm in complete limbo. I'm very much doubting i'll get a BFP this month as although we covered both times we thought I was OV'ing this month, it's been such a weird one. I'm not sure if i even did ovulate so at the moment i'm not holding out much hope.
So, here I am looking for some advice and support I suppose.
xxx
I'm sure you'll get yout BFP soon. 
