Justkeeptryin
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Hi, I've been really struggling through this latest miscarriage and have been so low and depressed and so anxious about everything. Just when I thought I was getting stronger I got the news today that a relative is also expecting and is 13 weeks, exaclty one week ahead of what I should have been. I am happy for her but genuinely knocked for six as I will look at her baby due in december and keep thinking thats the age mines would have been. I really am struggling with it all, never knew this could be so difficult, its all still so raw for me.
I am absolutely worried sick aswell that I will never be able to carry. I feel like I have too much going against me. I clearly have something causing the early miscarriages and all my signs point to low progesterone but I've also been told that I have uterus didelphyis which is two seperate wombs each with their own cervix. This is so rare and puts me at high risk aswell of 2nd and 3rd tri. miscarriages and premature labour. I dont seem to have any luck or anything going right.
I have cried my eyes out over the last 2 weeks and my husband and family have been great but Im still so upset and worried that everyone thinks I should be getting over this. Im trying to put on a brace face for everyone when all I want to do is cry. I just really feel like me and my husband dont deserve this, aswell as everyone else on this forum. This has to be one of the toughest things that we all face and absolutely noone understands unless they've been through this xx
I am absolutely worried sick aswell that I will never be able to carry. I feel like I have too much going against me. I clearly have something causing the early miscarriages and all my signs point to low progesterone but I've also been told that I have uterus didelphyis which is two seperate wombs each with their own cervix. This is so rare and puts me at high risk aswell of 2nd and 3rd tri. miscarriages and premature labour. I dont seem to have any luck or anything going right.
I have cried my eyes out over the last 2 weeks and my husband and family have been great but Im still so upset and worried that everyone thinks I should be getting over this. Im trying to put on a brace face for everyone when all I want to do is cry. I just really feel like me and my husband dont deserve this, aswell as everyone else on this forum. This has to be one of the toughest things that we all face and absolutely noone understands unless they've been through this xx