Thoughts of suicide....

[gracexxx]

I know exactly how you feel. I was with FOB for over a year, then we broke up and after i found out i was pregnant, but after a chat he promised to be there for me and out baby. At 7 months pregnant he ran off in my opinion deciding he wanted nothing to do with it ( he wont actually talk to me, so i just have to assume he wants nothing to do with us)
Since giving birth i have found out he has another gf and shes pregnant with his baby and hes decided to bring their baby up together but not ours, it kills me every day believe me, so when i say i know how you feel i really do. Stay strong x

 

[kelzyboo]

Sounds like post natal depression, you need immidiate help, please see a doctor before it takes all the enjoyment out of your first few months with your child, its something you'll never get back.

I will say this, i've been in a far worse place than you are now and i never seriously contemplated suicide, i thought about it but never 'really', i couldn't abandon my older child, i just couldn't do it to her and i wouldn't want to leave her, no matter what.
If you really could leave your baby, you need professional medical help asap.
I hope you get that help soon x

 

[tooyoung]

is she okay? is there any way to find out? I hope she hasn't hurt herself

 

[BigZai]

is she okay? is there any way to find out? I hope she hasn't hurt herself

I was thinking the same her public profile said she logged in yesterday
hope shes alright

 

[Lemonflower]

Please stay strong hun your LO needs you. Don't abandon her like you've been abandoned.
You're gonna be one tough cookie after going through all this I promise.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel even though I know it doesn't feel like it - I felt like you during pregnancy but I got conselling which I believed worked and I'm focusing on being the best mum I can be.

Don't let that man spoil you being a new mummy.

Please get help. Speak to family, friends or a doctor.

xxxxxx

 

[AnGP53]

your suffering postpartum go get help asap love
you can hurt yourself or your LO
also you can be very happy when you recover your not on this earth to please anyone because you do bad you get judged you do good you still get judged so please think for your LO and yourself at the end of the day he's a loser how can you feel bad you should laugh in his face for going with a dirty filthy whore! she's worth nothing and i bet it on anything they will not last and he's going to be miserable let karma hit him in the ass .
get your head out of what he's doing or what your family and friends think and concentrate on your LO look for an activity to concentrate on yourself go to the gym, yoga, pilates go have a drink with a friend remember how important YOU are. get a babysitter or family member to help you because thats what you need the most because your not you right ,your in pain from labour, pain from your breast if breastfeeding, your not sleeping well your just getting used to your new life and your hormones are all crazy but its all going to get better when you get help trust me baby your going to be the best mother your going to be happy you don't need a man to make you happy! also i was just reading a magazine where jennifer lopez was explaining that she got postpartum and got help because she felt as if her twins didn't like her and my mother suffer postpartum too she didn't like me an my grandma raised me the first 3 months its happen sweety
big hugs to you and LO enjoy this time of your life its the best part of life ever

 

[MommaAlexis]

Look up the song No lies Just love by Bright eyes.

 

[surprisebaby]

hi hope you are ok? I notice you made references to God and Satan in your post. And somehow I thought of this quote from the Bible. I personally find reading scripture really soothing when I am upset or hurt. I like this promise that God gives;

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Which means he has a good plan for your life. You need to believe in yourself more. Stop listening to your feelings. They are not always right. They are just feelings and they change all the time. sorry if thats sounds obvious.

I, like others here have been through a traumatic time, felt so abandoned, but what you are feeling now as you noticed is related to your past of being abandoned so the pain will be stronger, because you are grieving being abandoned when you were younger as well as what's happening now. That is why it might be particularly hard for you. Its a process you go through. A kind of grieving process.

It really does get better. I remember I used to cry every day when I was pregnant and a lot when my baby was just born too, but now I rarely cry. I have finally got through it. And you can too. Give yourself a chance to.

Try and go and socialise (mother and baby groups). It'll give you structure to your week. You maybe already do this, but I found going to baby groups made me focus on my new life instead of being focused on the past.

I think it was really brave of you tell us all of this. Don't be scared to talk to us all again. We are here for you xxx

 

[Cata]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWAqd4LMO4g