Ticked at OH.

[Horse&Heart<3]

So my boyfriend decided as of last night, it is time to quit cigarettes...

It is a good idea, I like it, He buys a pack a day, which is 10 bucks a day, during the whole week costs him 100 bucks, so he'd save 400 bucks a month. Good things, we can get that apartment we want...

We have tried this before mind you, and usually what happens, he gets in this insanelyyyyy bad mood, that lasts until he smokes another cigarette. And the person who is attacked mostly in this situation, Is the pregnant woman who's hormones and stressers are already ON A HIGH...

Well I take my boyfriend to work, at 7:30 in the morning, pick him up at lunch where I usually make food for him, then I pick him up at 4:30. I wanted to go down to CT and see my horse today, just to groom him, so I told him I will probably be picking him up around 11:30 for lunch. He agreed, he had already bitched at me that morning for something I had done, don't remember...

So I go home and I sleep in for a while because I had to drive his drunk ass home last night at 2 am, and wake up at 7:30 am to take him to work. He was going to have another ride this morning so I could of left early last night at the party, but there was this girl there and he get's horny when he is drunk, I thought it would be best if I could just wait for him cause ik I'd be paranoid. I trust him, and ik he loves me, it's just I didn't want to give myself the chance to be paranoid.

So after I dropped him off at work, he was already pissed. (No morning cigarette, as a past smoker, this is the most important one of the day). He snapped at me. I let it go, went home I fell asleep, woke up past the time at 11:30, (and I believe he had snapped at me this morning because he didn't want me to pick him up for lunch at 11:30, he likes going around 1.)

So I call up the office and tell my mom,(my parents own the business) hey can you tell George to call me about what time he wants to go out for lunch.. I missed his call, and he flipped out on me on the phone. "You expect me to call you when you don't even answer the phone!" I told him it only wrang once and I thought my brother got it and it wasn't for me. So then I made him a sandwhich(His favorite way) brought it with me to pick him up.

He seemed fine when I picked him up, we were talking perfectly fine, He liked that I brought him a sandwhich, he asked me if I would buy cigarrettes for Scott, this guy he works with. I said sure, he used my money to get a slushi at cumbies. I didn't care, 79 cents. whatever lol. He had told me he had bummed a cigg off Tommy(another guy he works with) and I was like well that's good you've only had one. Were on our way back. And I believe I said the littlest thing. I wish I remembered but obviously if I didn't it wasnt that important or big. And I felt the rage steaming off of him.

"YOU DIDN'T PICK ME UP AT 11:30 LIKE YOU SAID YOU WOULD!" "YOU DIDN'T ASNWER YOUR PHONE CALLS WHEN I WAS CALLING!" "WHY'D YOU EVEN BOTHER PICKING ME UP?!" ( There were a few swears, but that was the main facts he was trying to get across.)

I really, really wish I remembered what I said for this blow up to happen... But ofcourse, my hormones came in, and I said "Jesus fucking christ, you don't have one or two cigarettes and you get in this kind of a f*cking mood, I really wish I didn't pick you up." (In my head, I'm thinking he's lucky I'm doing him this favor, EVERY day instead of going to my barn. Cause that's what I canceled to come pick up.)

I get back to the office, he slams the door shut, no I love you, no Thank you ( I never get that, out of the past 4 months he has been working there and I pick him up and drop him off.)

I feel so unappreciated...

 

[divershona]

big hugs, hopefully things get better for you soon and ur OH manages to quit, i know how hard it is x

 

[Bride2Be]

You sound like you need a hug

I hope things get better for you two! He'll kick the habit if he works at it

 

[samface182]

i know it's hard to quit smoking, but he shouldn't be taking it out on you hun

i hope things get better for you, and he stops being such a grump!
xx

 

[lucy_x]

Trust me, I know how hard it is (although i was preg so i really really needed to give up).. I promise it will get better, If he sticks at it, in a few days he'l be him usual self again..

Its really hard i know, But you are probably going to have to put up with him "not appreciating" you, until his addiction dies... And it will be so worth it when bubs arrives, and you have a nice appartment

in a few months youl have forgotten how you feel now

 

[Desi's_lost]

Maybe it would be easier if he used something ie the patch, electric ciggarettes to quit? That why he wont be so mean to you =P

 

[PleaseBaby]

If he can male it through the first 3 day the nicotine will be out of his sysem. I know it's hard to quit but thats really no excuse t talk to you like that, is he always like that or is it just cos of the smoking?

 

[Horse&Heart<3]

He can be like that when he is really stressed out. He used to have severe anger issues and would flip and have no control of what he is saying. Last night when I came to pick him up, he told me all of his savings are gone... over 2,000 that was supposed all be spent on a car. Was spent on stupid useless crud, when he needs a car! To get to work, to do everything. I had a mental break down cause I haven't bought something for myself in 10 months! Let alone when I found out I was pregnant. I've been doing everything for everyone else but myself. And I can't take it anymore. I wanted to go buy something to make me happy. Just one thing I can keep. I thought maybe a little animal like a bird... That was a bad idea. Didn't end up getting it. But then George had told me, oh what about fetal heart rate monitor? So I can listen to the baby's hearbeat anytime I want. (That was the only good thing that has happened to me this week was listening to my baby's heartbeat at the doctor's so I wanted that thing really bad.) We find out, it's not sold anywhere near us. Then I was finally like, whatever, I don't even care anymore. I'm going out to the movies by myself, eating subway, and going to bed.

I wasn't mad at George or anything, I was just upset that I couldn't go shopping like I wanted to, because I had to save my 500 bucks because he lost his 2,000. I have no maternal clothes. I walk around in the same clothes every day practically because I have nothing else in my closet that would fit me cause I feel like a cow. Every day I get into a new fight with my family. Not to mention I just want to go see my horse, just be there with him and I can't cause I'm to busy carting George around.