Tigger Momma
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You know what really ticks me off??? Its that friends and family that know we
are TTC always say........Your trying to hard, or its just not the right
time...........or even hubby who keeps saying that there is nothing wrong and
it will just happen........Its not been as long as some but in the past 14
months, we have tried........NTNP/Preseed/OPK/Counting down till the middle
of the month and BDing/legs up in the air/Pillow under bum/Prayer/Making like
a doctor and checking CM the best way possible/Evening Primrose
oil/Robitussin/made sure I wasnt stressed and most of these were tried in
conjunction with another one............Its ridiculous.......At this point someone
needs to admit that there is a problem and not everyone looking at me like I
have 3 heads...............It just ticks me off. We have allready scheduled our
Doc appt and had first bloods taken, now were waiting on hubby to get
Sperm check (he has allready gotten his ex wife preggo twice so he isnt the
concern) I have never ever had a not even a whiff even before
hubby. Im just at the end of my rope and wonder if I'll have fur babies for
life only...........I try to look at all the benefits but that only lasts for a
minute......I know 11 people personally (not BNB related) that are preggo or
given birth in the past year. They are all close fam and friends..........Its like
its a conspiracy................Ive tried thinking maybe god doesn't want me to
have kids but then why would I have such a stronge urge to have them.
Then I think, maybe god doesnt have much to do with it cause crackheads
(no offense) have babies and they are in no way shape or form to have kids.
So now I think that maybe god doesnt really choose to control that aspect
and he just oversees it????? I dont know........Im clutching at straws
here.........Then I think, am I not healthy enough?? But then Im back at
example number 1. Crackheads???? They are by no means healthy so that
can't be it. Im not overweight at all. I just dont know...........What else can
I do, I mean really. I mean I am almost beyond TTC and
wanna say just forget it and take out all of my reproductive organs cause
then I cant symptom spot or even consider TTC and the emotional recovery
would be much easier because atleast then I'll know why and can grieve and
move on with my life. It's like every month I go through another cycle of
grieving my unproductivity just to go through it the next time AF
shows up........I am really sorry for making anyone upset but I NEEDED to
vent.....
are TTC always say........Your trying to hard, or its just not the right
time...........or even hubby who keeps saying that there is nothing wrong and
it will just happen........Its not been as long as some but in the past 14
months, we have tried........NTNP/Preseed/OPK/Counting down till the middle
of the month and BDing/legs up in the air/Pillow under bum/Prayer/Making like
a doctor and checking CM the best way possible/Evening Primrose
oil/Robitussin/made sure I wasnt stressed and most of these were tried in
conjunction with another one............Its ridiculous.......At this point someone
needs to admit that there is a problem and not everyone looking at me like I
have 3 heads...............It just ticks me off. We have allready scheduled our
Doc appt and had first bloods taken, now were waiting on hubby to get
Sperm check (he has allready gotten his ex wife preggo twice so he isnt the
concern) I have never ever had a not even a whiff even before
hubby. Im just at the end of my rope and wonder if I'll have fur babies for
life only...........I try to look at all the benefits but that only lasts for a
minute......I know 11 people personally (not BNB related) that are preggo or
given birth in the past year. They are all close fam and friends..........Its like
its a conspiracy................Ive tried thinking maybe god doesn't want me to
have kids but then why would I have such a stronge urge to have them.
Then I think, maybe god doesnt have much to do with it cause crackheads
(no offense) have babies and they are in no way shape or form to have kids.
So now I think that maybe god doesnt really choose to control that aspect
and he just oversees it????? I dont know........Im clutching at straws
here.........Then I think, am I not healthy enough?? But then Im back at
example number 1. Crackheads???? They are by no means healthy so that
can't be it. Im not overweight at all. I just dont know...........What else can
I do, I mean really. I mean I am almost beyond TTC and
wanna say just forget it and take out all of my reproductive organs cause
then I cant symptom spot or even consider TTC and the emotional recovery
would be much easier because atleast then I'll know why and can grieve and
move on with my life. It's like every month I go through another cycle of
grieving my unproductivity just to go through it the next time AF
shows up........I am really sorry for making anyone upset but I NEEDED to
vent.....