today I... add yours..

[aimze]

today i decided to decorate

 

[PinkCupcake]

Yesterday (sorry, that kinda defeats the object of this thread lol)
I put down a deposit for two little balls of fluff! they're a mix between a Chihuahua and a Bichon frise. It's been just over a month since I had my D&C and I finally feel like it's time to try and move on (as much as that's possible?) I'm not getting the dogs until the 21st, so even longer before they come, but it's also a little more healing time. I'm going back on the pill as i'm only 17, so me and OH (if we're still going strong) won't be trying for atleast another 5 or 6 years. Maybe even more, so these two little princes *will* be my babies, not that anything in the world could replace my angel x x

 

[PinkCupcake]

Today I had my D&C follow up appointment - 10 days after having had it done. He did a vaginal ultrasound & said I could expect to continue spotting for another 7-10 days from what's left to come out. But he gave me the all clear to get back to normal life, exercise, etc. All the details in my journal if you're interested. Wish hubby was home with me... I miss him.

Hi manuiti.. i'm just wondering really, did you have to make an appointment for a follow up after your D&C? I never got told anything about having to make an appointment and they haven't sent me anything through about it. They never said i'd have one either. It's been about 21 days or so since mine, and I only bled for an hour after being back on the ward. Do I need to enquire??

 

[aimze]

Today i also booked my d n c. I wanted to wait it out but after feedback decided this was the best option. X

 

[horseypants]

today i woke up with puffy eyes because last night when i asked OH to tell me a story and i wouldn't, i flipped out "i can have a d&c and you cant be bothered to tell me an effing story!!?!?!" i got mean and sad and after being a royal pain, fell asleep still crying.

um so yeah. today im hanging in there, embarrassed again, and waiting to o

 

[aimze]

arrr horsypants hope you feel better today

today i went for a form filling session at the hospital and feel better today than yesterday but know tomorro.will feel worse.

x

 

[BeautifulD]

Today I'm hoping to be pain free and get out of bed for a little while. I've been ok since the Erpc on Tuesday but today I'm really feeling the loss

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Today I had my D&C follow up appointment - 10 days after having had it done. He did a vaginal ultrasound & said I could expect to continue spotting for another 7-10 days from what's left to come out. But he gave me the all clear to get back to normal life, exercise, etc. All the details in my journal if you're interested. Wish hubby was home with me... I miss him.

Hi manuiti.. i'm just wondering really, did you have to make an appointment for a follow up after your D&C? I never got told anything about having to make an appointment and they haven't sent me anything through about it. They never said i'd have one either. It's been about 21 days or so since mine, and I only bled for an hour after being back on the ward. Do I need to enquire??

I don't believe there is a follow up in the UK after a d&c... If its natural, then you get a check up

 

[Babee_Bugs]

Well it's been about 9 weeks since my d&c

Today I started sorting out the pregnancy website blog I created when I was pregnant. It was sooo hard and emotional to go through pregnancy tests, bump images... Delete all the feelings and symptoms I had noted down.

Lastnight me and OH had a huge talk about what happened and how it made us feel, which was the first time since we lost our little one.

 

[aimze]

today i had the erpc...felt sad before but strangely ok now. im glad i can now look to the future.

i was thinking where my poppy is, she couldnt survive at 8 weeks in heaven but i found comfort picturing her in heaven at 4 yrs old. running through a golden field an i imagined her lovely tanned skin, golden brown bouncy curls an a face of an angel.

x

 

[aimze]

today i feel physicqlly better than yesterday but emotionally today has been hard. i brought a poppy themed storage box an put in there the pregnancy tests, unread pregnancy book i just brought and my tiny baby scan photos.

tomorrow i will go back to work

 

[horseypants]

today i feel emotionally stronger than before and am ready to ttc. on the negative tip though, i also have started asking myself what to do differently next time, hoping this never ever happens again.

today i also walked out of the house imagining that IF it does happen again, i will change jobs and move before trying again!

 

[Melanieanne77]

Yesterday my partner said that he realised how much TTC means to me and that life is too short to not keep trying...I think I may be Oing and so we had a lazy romantic day in bed on Sunday.

If it happens it happens...if not, I think I will put it all aside for a few months and focus on my new position at work...

Last thyme, I felt like I knew instantly that I was pregnant...this thyme, Ive no idea if Im ovulating or not. I keep using those cheap green sticks and the second line is quite feint which i guess means negative...

I cant believe I have gotten to this point - even though I still have days where I cry and cry. But at least those days are becoming few and far between. They surprise me when it happens though.

So I guess Im doing the Two Week Wait thing...

It is 7 weeks after my miscarriages and Im feeling hopeful that things can only get better from here on in

Hope everyone is celebrating their successes too x

 

[sp92]

Today I went to the doctor to get back on the pill. I've been fine about everything for the past few weeks but as soon as I sat down and he asked how I was doing I knew exactly what he meant and I just burst into tears. He was so good about everything, sympathetic and understanding which I appreciated. It just frustrates me how I can go about my life absolutely fine (I mean not dwelling on it, not getting upset every day, etc) and then as soon as I'm in a situation like that where someone directly asks me how I'm coping with everything and I have a million things I WANT to say about how well I'm doing, I just burst into tears and I can't express anything.

I really am coping well. I just wish I was able to put it into words without getting upset when someone asks me how I am.

 

[PinkCupcake]

Today I went to the doctor to get back on the pill. I've been fine about everything for the past few weeks but as soon as I sat down and he asked how I was doing I knew exactly what he meant and I just burst into tears. He was so good about everything, sympathetic and understanding which I appreciated. It just frustrates me how I can go about my life absolutely fine (I mean not dwelling on it, not getting upset every day, etc) and then as soon as I'm in a situation like that where someone directly asks me how I'm coping with everything and I have a million things I WANT to say about how well I'm doing, I just burst into tears and I can't express anything.

I really am coping well. I just wish I was able to put it into words without getting upset when someone asks me how I am.

I'm doing the exact same thing babe i'm fine every day now. I don't often think about what's happened anymore and haven't cried in a while but whenever someone asks me how I am, my heart will sink and i have to gulp so hard but end up crying anyway.

Anyway, what have i done today..
Took the first pill of the pack this morning as i'm also going back on the pill. I wasn't overjoyed about it at first because i wanted another little bean so bad but i realise now it's for the best and i have a long time to think about babies. I also went and got my nails done and got my hair restyled and my layers put back as it was getting longer than how it's suppose to be. Actually bothering with myself now .. yay !

 

[aimze]

yay to new hairdo!

today i havent cried...i came close several times but never.cried.

i also decided to move my wedding 7months earlier as a september wedding without 7month poppy is heartbreaking

xx

 

[horseypants]

i'm excited about getting married too and today, ive looked at my ring about a million times. i thought the ring would remind me of the tragedy becaue OH proposed in the midst of it, but it doesnt. it is beautiful and perfect and just what i always wanted. it reminds me of how steady DF has been in giving his love despite the dramatic traumas in our life together.

 

[PinkCupcake]

aww aimze! i keep thinking ahead too. even really tiny things like looking at the 'best before' date on food, and lately i keep seeing jan and feb 2013! now it seems like i can't help but think "oh, i should have a 1 or 2 month old by then..." it's horrible. and i keep basically torturing myself by looking at the pregnancy apps on my phone! it's amazing how big baby would have been by now and i can't believe i'd of been 17 weeks already. i get a bit angry inside whenever i think like that because i'd be quite a way into the pregnancy and now i have nothing inside me anymore. i'm glad to see that some of you are feeling better. i'm getting there quicker than i thought! also managing to see my friend in person who was due around the same time as me. i felt the baby kick today or should i say THUMP and while my heart sank to think i should be feeling the same, i'm now really excited for her. horseypants, that's real cute about the ring! i'm glad it doesn't bring it all back too, because you're going to have to look at it for a long time sorry for the rant/paragraph! didn't intend for it to be so long lol. xxx

 

[aimze]

horseypants when do you think you'll get married?

today i actually rebooked my wedding its like announcing it all over again. today i am also very bloated with a proper baby belly why wont my uterous go down??

today my weirdo cousin announced their expected baby on fb. 12weeks...im so jealous as they cant even look after themslves but i cant be angry...

x

 

[horseypants]

today my sister told me she's having a separate party with her newlywed friends and their new baby and the coast is clear for me to join her at the main celebration (i admitted to her that i cant handle being around the perfect family cause im jealous green monster)

aimze, congrats!!!!! i am shooting for around this time next year, but i'm waiting on the ok from our church to book the date ....screw and eff facebook! ....hey, how's work treating u?