Last night I ended it with my SO. I miscarried last week. Things were bad after we conceived for the entire couple months of the pregnancy. I was sticking around hoping it would get better. When the pregnancy ended I have it a week and ended the relationship. He asked if I really miscarried or if I'd had an abortion. I just feel so shocked. He doesn't even know me I guess and it's a loss of what I thought we'd had at one point. That reassured me that I had made the right decision, but still broke my heart a bit. I wish I could rewind to when we first found out I was pregnant, before either miscarriage. He used to be my best friend, but now we're strangers and this shit sucks. Just need to get that off my chest. Don't want the judgement IRL .
I'm 30, and an engineer. I should have my shit together. He is so negative, and brings me down. He was neglectful while I was pregnant claiming he was scared and not supporting me in any way even though I was terrified, too. He has children with two other women, and was never married to either. He is late on child support payments with his boys and hardly sees them. He sees his daughter slightly more often, but not much. I feel relieved to not be stuck with him, and foolish for having been with him. However, I am still mourning. I just can't understand how he could be so mean. I'm a hurricane of conflicting emotions and I just need to scream or run or something. I feel overwhelmed.
I'm 30, and an engineer. I should have my shit together. He is so negative, and brings me down. He was neglectful while I was pregnant claiming he was scared and not supporting me in any way even though I was terrified, too. He has children with two other women, and was never married to either. He is late on child support payments with his boys and hardly sees them. He sees his daughter slightly more often, but not much. I feel relieved to not be stuck with him, and foolish for having been with him. However, I am still mourning. I just can't understand how he could be so mean. I'm a hurricane of conflicting emotions and I just need to scream or run or something. I feel overwhelmed.