alwaysblve
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I know this is part irrational, but I really can't help it. I'm terrified to POS right now. The backstory below...
After trying for about a year (with a break from a CMV scare) my husband and I were so excited to learn that we were expecting our second. I had all the normal pregnancy symptoms, exhaustion, cramps, nausea- everything seemed normal. When we went for the check up at 8 weeks however, we saw no heartbeat. Per the doctor we either miscalculated when we conceived or it was a blighted ovum. Unfortunately it was the later and 2 days later I naturally miscarried.
My period thankfully returned promptly at about 30 days (my normal) and while more uncomfortable and longer than in past it seemed back to usual
Fast forward three months to today. My period is close to 2 weeks late and I haven't tested. I'm terrified. I'm worried about getting a BFN and the long road of waiting, but I'm perhaps even more scared of a BFP. I really want this baby, but I can't face another loss. I have so many fewer symptoms this time around... and it would still be another couple of weeks before being able to get the ultrasound. I am so worried about getting that BFP, just to lose it all over again.
My husband is respecting my right not to check yet, and I'm being careful about prenatal and foods etc. But I just don't know how to face the test.
My family and some of my friends know about our loss, but somehow the anonymous webosphere looks like a better crutch of support for my current fear. All words of advice and guidance are appreciate.
Wishing everyone babydust and excitement in the future,
After trying for about a year (with a break from a CMV scare) my husband and I were so excited to learn that we were expecting our second. I had all the normal pregnancy symptoms, exhaustion, cramps, nausea- everything seemed normal. When we went for the check up at 8 weeks however, we saw no heartbeat. Per the doctor we either miscalculated when we conceived or it was a blighted ovum. Unfortunately it was the later and 2 days later I naturally miscarried.
My period thankfully returned promptly at about 30 days (my normal) and while more uncomfortable and longer than in past it seemed back to usual
Fast forward three months to today. My period is close to 2 weeks late and I haven't tested. I'm terrified. I'm worried about getting a BFN and the long road of waiting, but I'm perhaps even more scared of a BFP. I really want this baby, but I can't face another loss. I have so many fewer symptoms this time around... and it would still be another couple of weeks before being able to get the ultrasound. I am so worried about getting that BFP, just to lose it all over again.
My husband is respecting my right not to check yet, and I'm being careful about prenatal and foods etc. But I just don't know how to face the test.
My family and some of my friends know about our loss, but somehow the anonymous webosphere looks like a better crutch of support for my current fear. All words of advice and guidance are appreciate.
Wishing everyone babydust and excitement in the future,
