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[BabyC4Me]

took a dollar store cheapie and it was BFN.... im going to assume that that line we all saw was a fluke and a evap or watever they are called....

i feel like a huge poker has popped my bubble of hope.

oh well...where is that bitch AF so i can get this over with....

how is everyone else doing?

 

[GoldenRatio]

took a dollar store cheapie and it was BFN.... im going to assume that that line we all saw was a fluke and a evap or watever they are called....

i feel like a huge poker has popped my bubble of hope.

oh well...where is that bitch AF so i can get this over with....

how is everyone else doing?

Ugh thats horrible! i officially hate evaps and curved frer

Dont lose hope until bitch shows p

 

[TJ Islander]

i dont think i will ever take a test unless im days late. you girls are the brave ones. i cant take the heartbreak of seeing one line.
Im on CD24. no symptoms. only slight cramps occasionally. nothing to speak of really.

this morning i prayed and i asked God for patience, faith and peace of mind.
I know i will have a baby. one of these days. but until then i pray for the strength to endure and the peace to weather this storm and not to be jealous or heartbroken when i see other mothers. i just have to wait my turn and know that nothing happens before its time.

sorry for getting too churchy but this is what keeps me sane.

 

[BabyC4Me]

i dont think i will ever take a test unless im days late. you girls are the brave ones. i cant take the heartbreak of seeing one line.
Im on CD24. no symptoms. only slight cramps occasionally. nothing to speak of really.

this morning i prayed and i asked God for patience, faith and peace of mind.
I know i will have a baby. one of these days. but until then i pray for the strength to endure and the peace to weather this storm and not to be jealous or heartbroken when i see other mothers. i just have to wait my turn and know that nothing happens before its time.

sorry for getting too churchy but this is what keeps me sane.

Patiece. Faith. And peace of mind. Those are def the three things that will help us all get thru this crazy journey in our lives.

Thanks for sharing this Tj!

 

[GoldenRatio]

Girls, its not ttc related but im feeling super down today...

I hate my job, absolutely hate it but cannot leave Im on a work permit in Canada and until i get my permanent residency card (its like green card), i have to stay with the same employer

I got a really good job offer, like dream job two months ago and had to turn it down. Today i got an other interview call from a really good company that i would love to work for. However, here i am turning all the jobs down.

I feel like im falling behind my career goals because of this stupid citizenship stuff. On top of my shitty day, my boss tells me "Maybe its ur poor design skillz" after a customer had a problem with his house ! Who says that to a designer??

I have been reading online to guess when i will get the card but it seems so random, some ppl it took yrs and some ppl it took months. How if i get pregnant by the time i get the card then i will be stuck with this job again.

Regardless, im stuck

 

[BabyC4Me]

So wait. There isn't any timeline on getting the residency ? You just have to pass the approval process.
????


And I know exactly how you feel. I was stuck at a job last year , becuZ I'm an adult and had to be responsible lol

The owner of the practice was promoting fraud to patients , conductig unethical medical procedures , and guilty of improper medical coding. I was applying months and finally took a overnight warehouse job JUST to get outta that hell hold.

Being at an employer that you are unhappy with especially while TTC can def be taxing on your nerves and stable mindset.

What tools are you using to destress/ take you thoughts off it ??

 

[puma1986]

Wow!

So much to catch up on.

BabyC: HOLY CRAP MAN! What a serious emotional rollar coaster! I KNOW EXACTLY how you feel. I was SO devastated. That line was really dark though.
I really hope you are! Like...seriously. I'm just as emotional about your guys' BFN's as my own!

Golden: Your boss is an ass. Ignore his negativity. You don't need that. That citizenship would be extremely frustrating! I totally could understand how you you'd be feeling down. Here's a hug!

 

[puma1986]

took a dollar store cheapie and it was BFN.... im going to assume that that line we all saw was a fluke and a evap or watever they are called....

i feel like a huge poker has popped my bubble of hope.

oh well...where is that bitch AF so i can get this over with....

how is everyone else doing?

Keep in mind that FRER's test down to 6.5 HCG whereas cheapies generally don't test below 20-25. (Most of them test between 30-50)

I wouldn't expect a FRER to have a light line and a cheapie to have a dark line or one at all

 

[BabyC4Me]

You are soooooo right about the cheapie picking up anything, the FRER is a much advanced test
...so i will wait for AF and stop this madness!

Waiting is what we do best...right??/ RIGHT????


ANYWAY thanks so much for the support Puma!!!

I missed you yesterday! I was down then up then down again this morning!
I had such a horrible time sleeping yesterday. i just kept thinking about getting a strong positive in the morning, that maybe i scared it away!!!!!

AF due Thursday .....re upping on tampons and wine i guess

 

[Bella12]

BabyC4me how annoying. I agree that must be a roller coaster. Try to keep faith alive until your AF arrives. I'm hoping it doesn't. I would like one of us to get pregnant this month. Was there anything special about urine that tested positive. Extra concentrated?

Golden: that really sucks. I have had really nasty bosses and I liked knowing I could quit if I needed to. Try to ignore her if you can. Try staying positive. When will you get residency and leave the job.

When I hated my job, I used to exercise like crazy at home and gym. Is that an option? Maybe yoga?

I've decided to go to funeral. I leave tomorrow. I hand one more chance to bd tonight. I'm going I can keep my mind uncluttered enough to make it happen.

 

[BabyC4Me]

BabyC4me how annoying. I agree that must be a roller coaster. Try to keep faith alive until your AF arrives. I'm hoping it doesn't. I would like one of us to get pregnant this month. Was there anything special about urine that tested positive. Extra concentrated?

Golden: that really sucks. I have had really nasty bosses and I liked knowing I could quit if I needed to. Try to ignore her if you can. Try staying positive. When will you get residency and leave the job.

When I hated my job, I used to exercise like crazy at home and gym. Is that an option? Maybe yoga?

I've decided to go to funeral. I leave tomorrow. I hand one more chance to bd tonight. I'm going I can keep my mind uncluttered enough to make it happen.

Im glad you decided to attend the funeral. Im sure that your family will appreciate it and it will bring closure to you and you dont want to regret this opportunity becuz of finances getting in the way

There wasnt really anything special about the urine same...i think it was a 4+ hour hold, which may have helped...not sure....Im online googlin evap lines on FRER now...they look similar to my test and its making me insane....

why cant the weekend come any sooner???

 

[puma1986]

You are soooooo right about the cheapie picking up anything, the FRER is a much advanced test
...so i will wait for AF and stop this madness!

Waiting is what we do best...right??/ RIGHT????


ANYWAY thanks so much for the support Puma!!!

I missed you yesterday! I was down then up then down again this morning!
I had such a horrible time sleeping yesterday. i just kept thinking about getting a strong positive in the morning, that maybe i scared it away!!!!!

AF due Thursday .....re upping on tampons and wine i guess

Exactly! But make sure you're taking care of yourself in the meantime and prenatal it up! If you do have a little bean in there, we have to make sure you're giving it everything it needs!.....

LOL... Reading this. "We" have to make sure. WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER! WE MAY NOT BE IN BED WITH YOU BUT DAMNIT WE ARE HELPING YOU CONCEIVE/STAY PREGNANT!

HAHAHAHA.

 

[BabyC4Me]

HAHAHAHA!!! We def are in this together girls!!!!!!

We tell each other things we could NEVER discuss with our closest friends and family members lol

the power of online communities

I am still taking prenatals and drinking lots of water....i just had a convo with my hubbie

he was on fb and said " dang all these ppl from our college are popping up pregnant ..." I instantly got super sad and said " yeah...everyone but us"

he replied " it will happen when its supposed to" and i automatically snapped " is that what ppl tell themselves when they dont get pregnant?"


I HATE/LOVE THAT PHRASE !!

is it just me? That phrase gets me thru the AF days, but then it makes me cringe when i hear ppl who HAVE KIDS say it!

no offense puma...but you know what i mean! lol LOVE U!

 

[puma1986]

HAHAHAHA!!! We def are in this together girls!!!!!!

We tell each other things we could NEVER discuss with our closest friends and family members lol

the power of online communities

I am still taking prenatals and drinking lots of water....i just had a convo with my hubbie

he was on fb and said " dang all these ppl from our college are popping up pregnant ..." I instantly got super sad and said " yeah...everyone but us"

he replied " it will happen when its supposed to" and i automatically snapped " is that what ppl tell themselves when they dont get pregnant?"


I HATE/LOVE THAT PHRASE !!

is it just me? That phrase gets me thru the AF days, but then it makes me cringe when i hear ppl who HAVE KIDS say it!

no offense puma...but you know what i mean! lol LOVE U!

LOL! LOVE you too! lt's totally fine! I was 20 when I got pregnant the first time. This is my first time ever TTC! So although I have a kiddo, I had him so long ago and I was single and scared - so this whole process of TTC is brand new to me! =) "It'll happen when it's meant to" is dumb. LOL That doesn't comfort me at all. I want a baby now, now, NOW! And so does everyone else in this thread.

We shall amend it to say..

"It will happen when I want it to, damnit"
If only, right? I tried.

 

[BabyC4Me]

EXACTLY!!!!! right damn now...of course it was easy when you werent planning to have your son..and BAM he's here.

and what makes this even worse for ME is that my hubbie confessed to me years ago, before we were married,engaged,or even together,
is that in college he got a girl pregnant( that he wasnt dating) that he prolly had sex with a total of 5 times if that and she got an abortion.

so he CAN get someone pregnant...why cant it be me?

WHY NOT US GIRLS????

rant over.

 

[TJ Islander]

guys, my best friend is 4 mnths with her second child. for this one she had sex on the day right after her period- a quickie with her ex!!!! how that sperm survived til ovulation is beyond me. she doesnt get along with the ex, it was a moment of weakness and he wanted her to get an abortion. hes basically washed his hands clean of this baby and barely there for the first

i try not to think about how "unfair" it is that im in a great relationship and its so hard for me. babies are a blessing and will happen in time. i dont dwell on it.

i decided to just have a tunnel vision...focus on me. all this just to try to avoid depression and sadness. fake it til u make it!!!

 

[BabyC4Me]

guys, my best friend is 4 mnths with her second child. for this one she had sex on the day right after her period- a quickie with her ex!!!! how that sperm survived til ovulation is beyond me. she doesnt get along with the ex, it was a moment of weakness and he wanted her to get an abortion. hes basically washed his hands clean of this baby and barely there for the first

i try not to think about how "unfair" it is that im in a great relationship and its so hard for me. babies are a blessing and will happen in time. i dont dwell on it.

i decided to just have a tunnel vision...focus on me. all this just to try to avoid depression and sadness. fake it til u make it!!!

WOWWWWW!!! one day after her period ???? maybe she had early O that month????

so bizarre and insane that this happened to her....Im sure she has mixed feelings about the bad timing but she is having another blessing on the way regardless.

Tj , you are hanging in there the best you can under the stressful circumstances that you are dealt....sometimes..its okay to say" F*CK EVERYBODY"....

and let those frustrations out...its only natural .


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AFM: red spotting this morning on undies and when i wiped and showered....AF IS HERE....and unlike cycle 2, i did not cry...i am not really upset...just kind of baffled that my body / or FRER would produce a faulty double line on monday....


I just kinda feel...exhausted of the whole process.

Im deciding to stay off the threads for a while kiddos, and focus on applying for a new job, reading my novels, and spending more time with my fur babies and hubbie. I have 2 vacations planned in the next month, Florida and Mexico...so i should be getting ready for those as well!

i will check in every so often but i think i need a FRESH start.


I love you all and when i decide to check back in , i wanna see BFPs all over this thread!!!

Stay relaxed and drop those healthy eggs mamas!

 

[TJ Islander]

guys, my best friend is 4 mnths with her second child. for this one she had sex on the day right after her period- a quickie with her ex!!!! how that sperm survived til ovulation is beyond me. she doesnt get along with the ex, it was a moment of weakness and he wanted her to get an abortion. hes basically washed his hands clean of this baby and barely there for the first

i try not to think about how "unfair" it is that im in a great relationship and its so hard for me. babies are a blessing and will happen in time. i dont dwell on it.

i decided to just have a tunnel vision...focus on me. all this just to try to avoid depression and sadness. fake it til u make it!!!

WOWWWWW!!! one day after her period ???? maybe she had early O that month????

so bizarre and insane that this happened to her....Im sure she has mixed feelings about the bad timing but she is having another blessing on the way regardless.

Tj , you are hanging in there the best you can under the stressful circumstances that you are dealt....sometimes..its okay to say" F*CK EVERYBODY"....

and let those frustrations out...its only natural .


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AFM: red spotting this morning on undies and when i wiped and showered....AF IS HERE....and unlike cycle 2, i did not cry...i am not really upset...just kind of baffled that my body / or FRER would produce a faulty double line on monday....


I just kinda feel...exhausted of the whole process.

Im deciding to stay off the threads for a while kiddos, and focus on applying for a new job, reading my novels, and spending more time with my fur babies and hubbie. I have 2 vacations planned in the next month, Florida and Mexico...so i should be getting ready for those as well!

i will check in every so often but i think i need a FRESH start.


I love you all and when i decide to check back in , i wanna see BFPs all over this thread!!!

Stay relaxed and drop those healthy eggs mamas!

Have fun!! see you later!!!

 

[GoldenRatio]

Bella Glad u decided to attend the funeral

TJ Its really hard to keep faith when you see god giving babies to ppl that dont even want it. Its really hard to understand how things work We are dying to have a baby meanwhile millions of ppl crying about the fact that they got pregnant not fair at all.....

BabyC Even tho i hate to see you leave us, im glad u are taking off from forums and ttc for a bit. Def focus on urself and ur trips! kinda jelly here now Hopefully you come back with a bfp

7dpo today, went to give blood this morning for my appointment next week. Will test 10dpo, sat morning.

 

[BlueStar89]

I kind of see this time as an introduction to my child.....just stubborn and doing things on their own time.

I've had to give myself a talking to recently...I've made TTC and having a baby my everything and so now it has taken over my life and I'm not really living anymore. I'm desperate not to go onto antidepressants but I have started counselling. I am going down the SMEP and using OPKs everyday, but I have decided I have to keep living. I can't not do stuff because I 'might' be pregnant then!

We have to remember to keep living our lives whilst we are on this journey.