TTC #4 after multiple losses

[PJS1982]

Hi girls

DH and I have been ttc #4 for over a year with several chemical pregnancies, a D&E at 13w due to T18 and tried Clomid. We did one cycle of clomid 50mg days 3-7 and I ovulated pretty strongly but had really thick hostile cm even after taking mucinex. My ob suggested we try another unmedicated cycle since the clomid may have given me the jump start I needed. Sure enough, Cd13-15 strongest O pains I've ever experienced and on my left side (I haven't ovulated from my left side in the entire year we'd been trying and each of my previous pregnancies were all right Ov babies confirmed by U/S so this was impressive). I had what I thought was IB on 9(ish) dpo and by 10 (ish) dpo, a faint bfp on frer with evening urine. Yesterday (11ish dpo) I took my second Frer with FMU to confirm and bfp! Pink but faint, definitely darker than the previous test. Today I wanted to confirm again (fear of cp is strong, ugh) and it's noticably lighter than yesterdays. So I had my cry, cussed out my body and now I'm awaiting AF in a few days because I feel so doom and gloom. I took a pic of the tests progression but I can't get it to flip around the proper way. So it goes left to right, 10, 11 and today 12 dpo. Please let me know if you have any advice, similar experiences, neg and pos outcomes. Thank you so much!

 

[Sunshine14]

hey hun just wanted to send you a big hug xx I have 3 LO's and have been trying for number 4 for 16 months now -- since last December I've had 3 cp's & 1 mmc which ended in August this year at 9 weeks following medical mgt. THe one thing I would say to u hun is that ur still young in ttc terms & u have had 2 LO's very recently so u just have to wait for that sticky one xx I'm 43 next week so I know my issue is eggs but with u u still have time & just have to stay + &keep trying & u will get there in the end .... was it defo a cp in the end? Sunshine xx

 

[PJS1982]

Thanks so much for the sweet words, Sunshine I have no idea if this baby will stick yet or not. I have an appt with my OB tomorrow morning. My tests are still positive, but I can't tell if they're darker or not. I used a $ store test and it came up pretty pink positive, but still faint. Haven't taken another FRER so I'm assuming (Hoping really) that because it came up obvious on the $ test that it would have come up darker on the FRER and maybe my 12dpo SMU was diluted? I'm trying to stay positive, but had intense AF type cramping last night all the way into my thighs and had to take a tylenol. No spotting or bleeding though and cramping was gone by 2AM. KMFX I get to take this little love home with me

 

[PJS1982]

Thanks so much for the sweet words, Sunshine I have no idea if this baby will stick yet or not. I have an appt with my OB tomorrow morning. My tests are still positive, but I can't tell if they're darker or not. I used a $ store test and it came up pretty pink positive, but still faint. Haven't taken another FRER so I'm assuming (Hoping really) that because it came up obvious on the $ test that it would have come up darker on the FRER and maybe my 12dpo SMU was diluted? I'm trying to stay positive, but had intense AF type cramping last night all the way into my thighs and had to take a tylenol. No spotting or bleeding though and cramping was gone by 2AM. KMFX I get to take this little love home with me

Here's a pic of my $ test that I took last night 8pm with a 2 hour hold

 

[PJS1982]

Testing completely negative just now. Pretty sure this is another chemical.