Hi this is my first post. I'm a mother of two boys 10 and 4. October 19th I misscarried. My cycle changed after my loss, it went from 28 to 35 days. Its been 35 days for about 3 months straight. I was suppose to get my AF on the 22nd. Took a HPT the day after I missed it and it came back negative. I am 5 days late now and got another BFN 
. My two boys are from a previous relationship. I feel like I want to give up cause its like an emotional rollarcoaster. My boobs hurt. Ive been having cramps for a week straight. I want my AF just to come. So I can stop waiting those 3 minutes hoping and praying and just seeing a BFN. The antcipation is unbearable. Its even making my honey sad. He can't believe that they are negative. How many negatives did you get before you decided to stop? Where do you find the strength to keep trying? Losing my sweatpea was the hardest thing. I can't help but blame myself. We were so excited. I was only 9 weeks. But it still hurts so bad. My due date was May 13th and now that is almost here its just making things worse.
. My two boys are from a previous relationship. I feel like I want to give up cause its like an emotional rollarcoaster. My boobs hurt. Ive been having cramps for a week straight. I want my AF just to come. So I can stop waiting those 3 minutes hoping and praying and just seeing a BFN. The antcipation is unbearable. Its even making my honey sad. He can't believe that they are negative. How many negatives did you get before you decided to stop? Where do you find the strength to keep trying? Losing my sweatpea was the hardest thing. I can't help but blame myself. We were so excited. I was only 9 weeks. But it still hurts so bad. My due date was May 13th and now that is almost here its just making things worse. 
. Its always easier said than done. But stay strong. When I missed carried my 10 year old son came up too me and told me "don't worry momma you will see your baby again one day" and I just keep reminding myself that when I get down. I like to think that my family in Heaven is taking care of my little sweatpea. Thank you. Ill post what happens either way.
