TTC

[hollyw79]

Anyone else feel like just being SO obsessed with TTC helps sort of ease the loss.. or at least stop from thinking about it so much?? I feel like it's what I have to hold onto in a way... like this madness gives me something to do because this waiting business SUCKS. I got a baby magazine in the mail today. I get it from signing up from when I WAS preggo.. just seeing a picture of 2 babies next to each other made me ACHE and It's like all of this mess doesn't seem so REAL until there is an actual .. like it's busy work ~ if that makes sense?

 

[Hanskiz]

I know EXACTLY what you mean. It is something to concentrate on, something positive you can do, looking forward rather than back.
I know every time I stop obsessing over TTC I think about how sad I am and how pregnant I 'should' be and it's just not healthy.
It's like the TTC obsession is the antidote to post mc depression. Got to have one or the other and I know which one I prefer!!
Obviously in some ways I wish I wasn't here and I was happily 19 weeks pregnant but if that were the case I never would've 'met' any of the wonderful ladies on here - and I'm REALLY glad I have.

Every cloud......

 

[hollyw79]

awwwwwwww super hugs for you

I agree~ I LOVE this section.. for sure partial over the regular TTC section honestly. It is nice to have people who *understand* .. and not just say they do~ but really do!

I hate thinking how far along I would be..

I feel like I am on a mission!!! MISSION CONCEPTION ASAP 10.0

 

[Hanskiz]

On a mission SO true!

 

[rachelbubble]

Oh my God! Thats so true! I have become a woman obsessed! It all started the day after my miscarriage! I opk every day and keep them in a little book to track how dark they are getting! I then write everything down, every symptom! Crazy lady!! Its funny but if any of my normal friend knew they'd probably have me locked up! Ha! I think its a positive thing to focus on, had a really dark day after my last period and that was not nice! Would much prefer to be a crazy obsessed ttc! Glad im not the only one!! X x x

 

[WoodyA]

I'm the exact same.
I think if I wasn't ttc I wouldnt be a nice person to be around!
It's definitely keeping me from dwelling too much!

 

[hollyw79]

Soooo true.. everything you all said. I think my heart would be DEFLATED if I wasn't trying right now honestly.

I wish I could POOF BFP's for everyone on here honestly! Sticky & healthy BFP's!!

 

[PCOSMomToTwo]

Good luck Holly!!! Are you taking Clomid this month?

 

[LittleBird]

I completely agree. After MC when we were NTNP, I felt like I was starting to resent DH because he was not on board. He didn't feel the loss the way I did. There is definitely a hole in my heart where that little one was supposed to be. Some days I think it's just too hard and maybe I should just stop. But I don't think DH would be able to live with me any more if I went into that mode. It wouldn't be what I really wanted.

 

[hollyw79]

Good luck Holly!!! Are you taking Clomid this month?

Not at this moment, no. Originally my OB wanted me to wait 3 cycles before doing IUI again (he did the IUI) but I could NOT wait until like June. I ended up going to the FS that I would have been referred to eventually if the IUI's didn't work.. It was just waaaaaaaaaaaay too stressful to get the sperm wash done@ one place and drive with the half an hour in traffic to my OB's office to do the IUI. I LOVE my OB .. but 1- that part was too much and 2- I can't wait 3 cycles- that is too long for me! Sooo long story short~ I'm in my 2ww right now au naturale.. still **PRAYING** .. if I get a BFN this month then probably in a week or so I'll be actually starting Femara. That's what you took, right?? I think I remember you saying you preferred that. My doc said he sees a slightly higher rate of miscarriage with Clomid and avoids prescribing it!! He doesn't know if it contributed to MY miscarriage~ but that's CRAZY!

Wish me luck for this month!!!

How are you doing???

 

[PCOSMomToTwo]

Good luck Holly!!! Are you taking Clomid this month?

Not at this moment, no. Originally my OB wanted me to wait 3 cycles before doing IUI again (he did the IUI) but I could NOT wait until like June. I ended up going to the FS that I would have been referred to eventually if the IUI's didn't work.. It was just waaaaaaaaaaaay too stressful to get the sperm wash done@ one place and drive with the half an hour in traffic to my OB's office to do the IUI. I LOVE my OB .. but 1- that part was too much and 2- I can't wait 3 cycles- that is too long for me! Sooo long story short~ I'm in my 2ww right now au naturale.. still **PRAYING** .. if I get a BFN this month then probably in a week or so I'll be actually starting Femara. That's what you took, right?? I think I remember you saying you preferred that. My doc said he sees a slightly higher rate of miscarriage with Clomid and avoids prescribing it!! He doesn't know if it contributed to MY miscarriage~ but that's CRAZY!

Wish me luck for this month!!!

How are you doing???

SENDING LOADS of GOOD LUCK your way!!! I really hope you get prego the au naturale way ... sure is A LOT less stressful

The waiting part is the worst, if my doctor said I would have to wait 3 months I probably woulda gone ape crazy on him! When they told me I had to wait 1 cycle I about died Grrrr!!!

About Femara, I'm sure you've seen plenty of my posts teehee I am such a hardcore fan! I think that's only because "I" experienced such horrible side effects that I wouldn't wish apon anyone.

Well Holly, I hope you don't have to go as far as fertility meds and that you get your this month. I think I'm covered in baby dust because everyone I talk to on here seems to get prego (apparently I am immune to baby dust lol) So here it goes ..... I really hope it works!!

Take care

 

[hollyw79]

Well, I'll only take your baby dust if I can share it with you!!!!

I'm actually glad to read people talk highly about a medication... I've always seen mixed stuff on clomid.. but not as much with Femara.

Yes, I DID near die when my OB said 3 cycles.. and internally I was going "OH HECK NO!" and made sure to have sex AS MUCH as possible. My Dh said he felt like a porn star this month His numbers were DRAMATICALLY better when we did the IUI so I am hoping we don't even need the IUI.. but @ the same token~ I am not going to wait to go back to it again either as I know the odds are much higher of conception with it.. so I'm not waiting regardless!

Double dose of STICKY baby dust for ya!

 

[PCOSMomToTwo]

Well, I'll only take your baby dust if I can share it with you!!!!

I'm actually glad to read people talk highly about a medication... I've always seen mixed stuff on clomid.. but not as much with Femara.

Yes, I DID near die when my OB said 3 cycles.. and internally I was going "OH HECK NO!" and made sure to have sex AS MUCH as possible. My Dh said he felt like a porn star this month His numbers were DRAMATICALLY better when we did the IUI so I am hoping we don't even need the IUI.. but @ the same token~ I am not going to wait to go back to it again either as I know the odds are much higher of conception with it.. so I'm not waiting regardless!

Double dose of STICKY baby dust for ya!

Porn star That is frickin HILARIOUS!!!

I can't wait till I have a 2nd baby so I don't have to stress about sex anymore. Wouldn't it be nice to just have sex to have sex ... instead of thinking ......
----is this the best position? Should I raise my butt 10 feet in the air? Note to self --- no going pee for at least 1 hour. Oh please little souldiers stay inside. Don't sleep on your side could confuse the sperm

YES every single one of those thoughts races through my head before, during and after .... It's enough to send me to the crazy hospital

Oh well, all in the name of love right?! haha

 

[MsJMouse]

Porn star That is frickin HILARIOUS!!!

I can't wait till I have a 2nd baby so I don't have to stress about sex anymore. Wouldn't it be nice to just have sex to have sex ... instead of thinking ......
----is this the best position? Should I raise my butt 10 feet in the air? Note to self --- no going pee for at least 1 hour. Oh please little souldiers stay inside. Don't sleep on your side could confuse the sperm

YES every single one of those thoughts races through my head before, during and after .... It's enough to send me to the crazy hospital

Oh well, all in the name of love right?! haha

I am so hearing you on this. I feel I am BDing at the moment for the sake of making sure there are waiting around for that egg. SIGH when did I get so crazy. I certainly wasn't this obsessed before the MMC.

to everyone.

 

[hollyw79]

Oh yes, I think ALL of those same things.. TBH, my DH are so worn out that we haven't had sex ALL week!!! We're just burned out a bit

I tell ya what ~ there are just WAY too many things that I feel have to be done perfectly.. why can't I just have sex with my husband once and be guaranteed a healthy pregnancy like quite a few other million people out there??

 

[MsJMouse]

Gees that would be nice.