VickyLou
1 beautiful little lady.
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I wish I could turn the clock back to last year before I was pregnant. This sounds awful but my baby wasn't planned, my first born was just 12 months old when I found out I was expecting again. I wanted a second baby but just not at this time, it took 8 years to get caught with my first so I wanted to enjoy her and have a lot more 1on1 time with her before even thinking about a second.
Now I have birth 31st August, I had a very tramaumatic labour/birth (story is in the announcements section if you want a very long read) I feel no bond/connection with my little lady. I feel happy when I'm not around her or doing things for her. How cruel is that, she doesn't deserve this! She's my daughter, I should love her, which I do to a degree but not like I should. I never got that rush of love that people talk about. I never got it with my first born either, it took about 10 weeks to get it with her. I'm praying it's just baby blues that's taking a little longer to go away cause of everything I have been through but I'm also scared of going to the doctors to talk about how I'm feeling as I don't want tablets or social services at my door, will they come if i talk to my GP?
Now I have birth 31st August, I had a very tramaumatic labour/birth (story is in the announcements section if you want a very long read) I feel no bond/connection with my little lady. I feel happy when I'm not around her or doing things for her. How cruel is that, she doesn't deserve this! She's my daughter, I should love her, which I do to a degree but not like I should. I never got that rush of love that people talk about. I never got it with my first born either, it took about 10 weeks to get it with her. I'm praying it's just baby blues that's taking a little longer to go away cause of everything I have been through but I'm also scared of going to the doctors to talk about how I'm feeling as I don't want tablets or social services at my door, will they come if i talk to my GP?