Waiting To Wait

[princess_x0]

Hey everyone
I really loved the idea of a journal, somewhere you could really write your feelings down and someone else (might) read it seems nice. You don't have to meet them either. So it's private, but not. Lol. Ok rambling already!
Right well I don't exactly fit into the WTT section, but since I don't fit into any section right now I thought this was the best section. I am currently WTWTT. On a mission as Nightkd says lol.
My mission in life is to find the man of my dreams (or good as) and have a baby (or ten).
Ever since I can remember all I have ever really wanted out of life was to get married and have lots of babies.
I have just come out of a relationship, it was my first serious relationship and I have come out a bit bruised. And until 5 months ago I never realised how much I actually want this.
I fell pregnant on the pill, I was pretty shitty at taking it, but I always took it as soon as I remembered. But still I found it a big shock to see the positive line on that pregnancy test. I was oh so happy about this, but my ex how ever wasn't and he soon persuaded me to terminate.
And now here I am 5 months later lonely and full of regrets, yet still extremely hopeful.
I am currently halfway through my second year at college where I am studying hairdressing NVQ2. I can't stand it and am definately not going pursue this as a career.
I have a part-time job at lloyds/wetherspoons, where I will probably go full time until I decide what I actually want to do for my career, right now I am leaning towards wedding planning..
I don't know what else to say really, I hope I'm not intruding on you WTTer's if so I won't carry this journal on

 

[nightkd]

You belong here princess, just because you haven't got a prospective baby daddy at this very moment, doesn't mean you're not waiting to try. It just means you're waiting to try with no clear date right now! If anyone says otherwise send 'em my way!

Who knows? You could end up in TTC before me if you find that perfect someone that wants your babies!!! Lol! ^_^

xxx

 

[krockwell]

Welcome hun, you totally belong here! You're just like the rest of us! WTT!!!
Welcome! And I hope you find your prince charming sooner then later.

Best of luck!

 

[princess_x0]

Thanks girls. You made me smile
Lol Char I don't think that's going to happen somehow haha! xxx

 

[Pops]

Welcome to B&B

As has been said, you belong here so do not think otherwise.

I only found the site at the weekend but already have been made to feel very welcome and have had some really good advice.

Hope you find your perfect man soon x

 

[Dream.A.Dream]

You belong here princess, just because you haven't got a prospective baby daddy at this very moment, doesn't mean you're not waiting to try. It just means you're waiting to try with no clear date right now! If anyone says otherwise send 'em my way!

Who knows? You could end up in TTC before me if you find that perfect someone that wants your babies!!! Lol! ^_^

xxx

I agree with this, You could get lucky and end up TTC before all of us that are waiting on our OHs! Lol xxx

 

[Zarababy1]

hi hun! just thought this might cheer u up a bit...after 2 or 3 months together me n my OH were talking about WTT after about 3 or 4 months we were TTC! at 5 months we were engaded at 7 months i found out i was expecting!!! i wasnt even looking for a boy friend at time! 18 months later i have a baby and a hubby to be (and were still VERY much in love!!) were getting married in april...so it really can all happen that fast!!! hope you find what you'r looking for soon hun xxx

 

[Drazic<3]

aww, of course you belong here!! your another WTT girly!
By the time my OH mans up and gets me preggers your children will have probably grown ip and left home!

Thanks for sharing

 

[princess_x0]

hi hun! just thought this might cheer u up a bit...after 2 or 3 months together me n my OH were talking about WTT after about 3 or 4 months we were TTC! at 5 months we were engaded at 7 months i found out i was expecting!!! i wasnt even looking for a boy friend at time! 18 months later i have a baby and a hubby to be (and were still VERY much in love!!) were getting married in april...so it really can all happen that fast!!! hope you find what you'r looking for soon hun xxx

Awh that is a lovely story! Not meaning to sound cheesy or anything I hope that happens to me

 

[dizzy65]

 

[princess_x0]

So I guess we are supposed to write in our journals often lol..
Thanks girlies for all your lovely words I'm glad I'm not intruding!
Ok so yeaaah what to write *thinks*
Basically right now I am getting rather annoyed with the people on my class and their immaturity gah. I guess you never rid of petty people whereever you go!
Not feeling to bad really, today I would have been due in 8 weeks exactly
But aside from that I'm quite happy atm though, got a few things planned for next year yay! Going to see Chris Brown 3rd of Jan, then got my 18th 2nd feb, hopefully by then I would have passed my theory and be booking a crash course to get my blooming liscence lol! And going to see Girls Aloud in may I am rather excited!!!
So I have some plans for 2009. I made my first resolution which is to put £2 in a jar everyday of the year and at the end I would have £730 by 31st december 09. To spend on what I like, which would probably get put into a baby/wedding fund tbh. But it's a bit of a start.
I have also decided that if, big fat if I meet my dream man in 2009 a 2011/2012 baby will be on the agenda whether he likes it or not.
Off out on thursday with my college girls and boys The people who sing that song..set you free are playing live in a club so quite looking forward to it. Main priority is to beat my ex to getting myself a boyfriend before he gets a new girlfriend though..
Will I manage to pull myself a nice lad? Doubt it...
Place your bets girls! Lmaooo
My friend brought her baby boy into college, oh my god he was SOOOO gorgeous I am mega jealous. And my other friend is 6 months next week, god her pregnancy is flying by I can't believe she has 3 months left already. She's not really showing, but I hate being so jealous because everyone is all over her and she is loving it. I touched her mini bump once and now it's just like leave me alone I don't want to talk to you, you pregnant bitch. Which sounds so bloody awful but it just isn't FAIR

 

[princess_x0]

aww, of course you belong here!! your another WTT girly!
By the time my OH mans up and gets me preggers your children will have probably grown ip and left home!

Thanks for sharing

haha that's scary, moving out and making me a granny xx

 

[Dream.A.Dream]

So I guess we are supposed to write in our journals often lol..
Thanks girlies for all your lovely words I'm glad I'm not intruding!
Ok so yeaaah what to write *thinks*
Basically right now I am getting rather annoyed with the people on my class and their immaturity gah. I guess you never rid of petty people whereever you go!
Not feeling to bad really, today I would have been due in 8 weeks exactly
But aside from that I'm quite happy atm though, got a few things planned for next year yay! Going to see Chris Brown 3rd of Jan, then got my 18th 2nd feb, hopefully by then I would have passed my theory and be booking a crash course to get my blooming liscence lol! And going to see Girls Aloud in may I am rather excited!!!
So I have some plans for 2009. I made my first resolution which is to put £2 in a jar everyday of the year and at the end I would have £730 by 31st december 09. To spend on what I like, which would probably get put into a baby/wedding fund tbh. But it's a bit of a start.
I have also decided that if, big fat if I meet my dream man in 2009 a 2011/2012 baby will be on the agenda whether he likes it or not.
Off out on thursday with my college girls and boys The people who sing that song..set you free are playing live in a club so quite looking forward to it. Main priority is to beat my ex to getting myself a boyfriend before he gets a new girlfriend though..
Will I manage to pull myself a nice lad? Doubt it...
Place your bets girls! Lmaooo
My friend brought her baby boy into college, oh my god he was SOOOO gorgeous I am mega jealous. And my other friend is 6 months next week, god her pregnancy is flying by I can't believe she has 3 months left already. She's not really showing, but I hate being so jealous because everyone is all over her and she is loving it. I touched her mini bump once and now it's just like leave me alone I don't want to talk to you, you pregnant bitch. Which sounds so bloody awful but it just isn't FAIR

Hunny i know what you mean about being jealous of those who are pregnant. I think it's kinda normal for all of us in here because it's what we want so badly.

Sounds like you have loads planned for the new year Also that saving is a great idea.

Good luck with finding yourself a new man xx

 

[Drazic<3]

I am sooo jealous of my preggers foster sister, but she is jealous of me because i have almost finished my degree and im engaged.

Sometimes i wish we could spend more time happy with what we have. but that doesn't stop me wanting to steal her LO!

 

[princess_x0]

Thankyou girlies
Not much to report today lol, but my friend passed her test today and now has her driving liscence, yay free lifts to college for me
xxx

 

[Dream.A.Dream]

Thankyou girlies
Not much to report today lol, but my friend passed her test today and now has her driving liscence, yay free lifts to college for me
xxx

Is great when friends pass their driving tests xx

 

[princess_x0]

Lol will be even better when I finally pass mine except I will have to pay for it

 

[princess_x0]

Hey guys
I haven't written in here for a while lol oops not very good at this
Sigh, where do I start? Hmm, thursday I guess, I went out and got totally rat arsed after discovering because I work in Lloyds I get buy one get one free drinks in Revs But what do I end up with?? A hang over that lasted two frigging days..
I've been feeling pretty low the past few days, work hasn't helped either. Saturday night a girl who is 23 weeks pregnant was out clubbing, yeah fair enough you can still socialise. But she was on her third pint before 8.30!! She was staggering about telling everyone how she hasn't had a drink since she found out she was pregnant. I was just like what do you want a bloody medal or something? Look at the blooming state of you! Poor baby!! It really annoys me when I see people like this, yeah fair enough a drink is fine, but getting completely lashed is not on.
And then yesterday at work my manager assulted me, so now I have to go through so much hassle to report him and so on, so forth. Godsake.
On top of this I keep having dreams of being pregnant or having a baby, I wake up in such a crappy mood after these dreams it is getting quite depressing to be honest. I had a really nice dream last night that I was pregnant with my ex's baby and overdue, and I ended up going into labour on his birthday and when I phoned him to tell him he didn't give a shit because he was so drunk lol. And I ended up giving birth in my nan's old house, she delivered a baby boy with a pringle tube (wtf?). So phoned my ex and told him he has a son, but yet again he wasn't bothered so I told my nan not to contact him I had my son and that's all I needed. Then I took him into work to show him off lol.
Weird. And what's weirder is that my boobs were so so so sore for ages and they have suddenly had a great growth spurt over night but atleast I've stopped bleeding *touch wood*. But I do have great big white heads popping up all over the place, I had one on my shin saturday night :S weird as I never had a white head before, just the odd pimple.
Sorry to ramble I don't think alot of this made sense lol xx

 

[toffee87]

I passed my test in October. Third time lucky

It's worth every penny!

Sorry you've had a lot to deal with (((hugs)))

 

[princess_x0]

Lol I have a feeling it's gunna take me a fair few times to pass mine! I've lost my provisional so gota go through that palarvar of getting a new one.
Thanks hunny