Wanting to ignore it all!

[Msammi123]

Don't get me wrong I'm over the moon that I'm pregnant!!

I've been lurking in here since finding out a week ago BUT I'm desperately trying to just ignore the fact that iam because I've suffered heartache in the past!!
My last MC was in November last year but as my sig says I've had a lot go on in that department!
I'm putting off ringing the doctors because I suppose I'm dreading the fact that I might mc again and I just feel so drained sometimes.
My symptoms come and go and other than tieredness and sore boobs I don't even feel pregnant! My OH says he just has a feeling that everything's going to be ok but I feel I'm convincing myself that it's not, which is upsetting

I wish that things were easy and I could just believe that everything's going to be ok!!
The anxiety is making me loopy
Sorry for the depressing post but I just had to vent

 

[Twag]

So sorry for your losses but try not to stress & worry too much as that is not good for you or your baby

I hope you have a happy & healthy 9 months hun

 

[Embo78]

So sorry for your losses hun. Your last loss was only a few months ago. Of course you're going to try to protect yourself by trying to bury your head in the sand. It's completely understandable.
I did the same with my rainbow's pregnancy. I didn't enjoy it one bit cos I was constantly worried/anxious/suffering insomnia.

This time I hope to try to enjoy first tri a bit more and be a bit more present but it's been quite some time since my last loss. 14 months

 

[Msammi123]

Thank you! I'm feeling very emotional today!
I know I have to go and see the doctor because they will want to do an early scan but I'm terrified x