I am so sorry you are going through this. I lost my Ava at 18 weeks. I went in with my best friend to do the Amnio and she was gone, no heartbeat
I think well I know my world ended that day. I had to get 3 more sonograms for it to be confirmed
and then I had to wait 3 days with her dead inside me
for an operation they call a D and E ? Never heard of this procedure , but anyway they stick things up you called Seaweed to open your cervix the night before the operation and then they go in and take the baby out piece by piece
when you are past 15 weeks there is nothing else they can do, they can induce you but they don't recommend it, for me , Ava didn't wait for the operation she came out in my bathroom, which at first I thought God was punishing me but after I learned what that operation was I was so happy she came out this way. We held her and buried her on March 11th 2011
The nurses told me before, I would have went in for the surgery ,they would have explained the D and E procedure to me. I would not have done it, I would have walked out and told them to induce me. It was just a mess and I am still a mess. You just never get over this, ever. I am 40 and have 3 boys 20,17 and 11 and we were not planning anymore, after 11 years = SURPRISE .... Ava was here and now she is gone and I am so so empty
We get through it, but it hurts so very much, it does ease the pain but it's always there. I will start crying out of the blue I could be anywhere and then this feeling comes over me and I am a mess
I have changed, this has made me a different person and at times someone I don't know. You will get through this but never over it, just know people care and will be here if you need us. I am so sorry and if you need to talk please message me
XOXOXOXOXOXXOOXOXOX